Inside Miss Taylor's Mind

AND I'M OFF...!!!

2009-08-29T01:21:00.002-04:00

For those of you that are not aware, I am off to LONDON, ENGLAND in a matter of hours!! I'm soooo excited!!! What a great way to end a stank ass, effed up, piece of steaming cow shit summer! No really...this was probably the worst summer in all my years on Earth. It sucked.... I want to do whatever I can to forget about the endless days of rain and dark grey skies! Eww! We literally had 7 days of sunshine....and that was the end of that! I'm not the only one who thought this summer suck cow balls either! Everyone I've talked to has said the exact same thing! From Canada Day to Caribana....the excitment these past 3 months have been at a all time low...and by that I mean on a scale from 1 to 10 is was a big fat fakin ZERRRRRROOO!!!

Excuse my hauntedness today...I'm just so damn excited to be leaving this shit hole for a while! Don't get me wrong. I LOVE me some Toronto and all but I am lonnnnng overdue for a vacation. My mom was raised in England and I have a ton of family on both my parents' sides that I'm so looking forward to meeting. This trip is JUST what I need to clear my head and come back a brand new and improved Bad Bytch! Oh the shopping, the food, the fresh delicious CHOCOLATE factories, the sexy Brits with their sexy accents.....I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!

I should have a computer at my hotel so I'll try my best to keep you guys updated and post as many pics and video as I can....Ok I'm lying! I won't be doing any of that until I get back! Who am I really fooling here?!

Don't miss me too much!!
I love you all!!!

Later Chaps!!!

Letting go...

2009-08-27T00:02:00.008-04:00

Anyone out there who thinks letting go of a relationship is an easy process has undoubtedly never been in love. If you've ever told someone to "just get over it" or "stop dwelling on it", I have news for you...easier said than done my friend. You see the process of letting go does not just involve walking away from someone and jumping in bed with the next appealing person that catches your eye. Letting go means mentally and emotionally removing a person from your life. A person that once meant the world to you. A person with whom you've shared a million kisses, a thousand hugs and countless memories. A person who was by your side when you woke up suddenly from a bad dream at night. A person who kissed away your tears even when you tried your hardest not to cry in front of them. A person with whom you shared the type of laughter that made you feel like cheeks were going to burst. A person whose arms felt like iron gates, that once wrapped around you and made you feel like nothing in this world could possibly harm you. A person who you grew with and eventually grew apart from.

Letting go is probably the hardest thing a person can possibly do in this life. I used to be ashamed about admitting that I was in a relationship that failed. I felt like I had to act like I was strong enough to hold down any man and make it last no matter what. I'm now wise enough to know that you can't change people and more importantly, you can never change the plans that God has for you. I am not ashamed to have lost because I loved. I loved with every piece of my heart and soul. There's no better feeling in this world than having someone to share your love with, and because of this, I have no regrets. I still love. I will always love. I am grateful for the time we shared together and I am thankful for what I learned from our relationship. When I cry, it's because in essence, a part of me has died but in reality that part will live forever as memories in my heart. All good things must eventually come to an end, and the end brings on beautiful new beginnings. I look forward to learning more and loving again.

LETTING GO TAKES LOVE

To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable, but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another, it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective, it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more and
To let go and to let God, is to find peace !

Remember: The time to love is short ------ author unknown

Again....

2009-08-20T00:04:00.001-04:00

I heard from a friend today
And she said you were in town
Suddenly the memories came back to me in
My mind

Chorus:
How can I be strong I've asked myself
Time and time I've said
That I'll never fall in love with you again

A wounded heart you gave,
My soul you took away
Good intentions you had many,
I know you did
I come from a place that hurts,
an' God knows how I've cried
And I never want to return
Never fall again
Making love to you oh it felt so good and
Oh so right

Repeat Chorus

So here we are alone again,

Didn't think it'd come to this
And to know it all began
With just a little kiss
I've come too close to happiness,
To have it swept away
Don't think I can take the pain
Never fall again
Kinda late in the game
And my heart is in your hands
Don't you stand there and then tell me
You love me
Then leave again
'Cause I'm falling in love with you again
Hold me, hold me
Don't ever let me go
Say it just one time
Say you love me
God knows I do love you again

How much respect do half naked women deserve nowadays???

2009-08-14T00:31:00.003-04:00

Nice guys vs. Bad Boys

2009-08-13T16:12:00.003-04:00

Do nice guys really finish last?? Damn right they do!!! Why?? Who the hell knows??!? Bad boys make us crazy in more ways than one, yet us women refuse to give them up....

Stay tuned for the wrap-up on this topic plus an exciting new one!!!

xoxo

I look drugged!!!

2009-08-11T20:15:00.004-04:00

Nonetheless I address a questionable topic.....listen carefully and share your opinion....

NEW VIDEO BLOGS!!!!!

2009-08-11T18:12:00.003-04:00

Reporting to you all from the comfort of my living room!!
Hope u can hear me....

Oh my God I'm back again!!!!

2009-07-09T20:38:00.004-04:00

Yessssss!!! That's right! Your eyes are NOT deceiving you! Ash's back! I took a well needed vacation from blogging but now I'm just down right bored! Plus I missed you guys!! It's been far too long! Let's catch up shall we??

First of all me just say, I decided today that if I were a man, I would definitely be gay! Yup!! I'd be a flaming homosexual! You know why? Cuz females are just disgusting! They're gross! Their mission in lives are to lie on their backs and do as little else as possible. They are cheaters, they are liars, they are whores and they're just down right nasty! Now I'm not speaking of all women, mostly just the baby mommas (or future baby mommas) in the 20-25 age range that went to Pope in Scarborough. So if you attended any other high school, you are not included in this vent. However if you are a former Pope attendee and you happen to be reading this right now, I have 5 words for you that you'll probably be hearing often for the rest of your life "HE IS NOT THE FATHER!!!" Try again in another 9 months ladies! Don't worry, Maury never run out or paternity tests!

Ok now that that's out of the way...I've also made the decision to not make my blogs quite as personal as I was before. I know that may be disappointing because so many of you seem to enjoy the roller coaster I call life, BUT if you're close enough to me, you'll get the inside scoop regardless. And if you're not, chances are you'll probably hear it from someone I wrongfully trusted with my secrets anyway.

I am a writer and as I've stated before, my therapy is filling you all in on some of the chaos that goes down in my daily routines. But what I feel I need to spend more time doing is bringing peace into my life. Surrounding myself with positive things and positive people instead of worrying about who's trying to sleep with people they should not be sleeping with (Oops! Did i say that out loud?? GOOD!) Furthermore, I'm not going to make it my job to call out bad minded people anymore. Those who do me wrong are left to be dealt with by one and one alone...God. That's it. There's nothing I can do to punish them with my words or actions. Ultimately, you know what they say, Karma is a bitch!! Not just any bitch either....a psychotic pre-menstrual bitch suffering from bloating, fatigue, lower abdominal cramps and an extreme lack of sexual activity. So go on! Keep it up! I encourage you....

My life is a movie!

2009-05-29T19:29:00.003-04:00

Yes...Indeed it is. My life, ladies and gentlemen is FUCKIN movie (pardon my French). It is one long dramatic, romantic, action-packed, horror chick flick! True story! Oh it doesn't even come close to fitting into one specific category. It's allllll of the above. I'm so convinced that the shyt that happens to me CANNOT possibly happen to anyone else. I guess that could be part of the reason why I blog. I get super excited when someone leaves a comment saying that they can relate to what I'm going through. Without that reassurance, I would very well believe that I am the only alien on this planet whose life is a constant roller coaster. Now for those of u who know me, you're probably thinking that I'm being an over the top drama queen right now, but ask urself this...do u REALLY think I tell u everything that goes on in my life?? With all due respect, I DO have at least some secrets. I get myself if some situations that u may never hear about. Situations that lead me to believe that my life is indeed a movie. Who are the viewers you ask? Who knows! But the ratings must be pretty damn high cuz I see no season finale is my future!

The drama never ends. I wake up...drama...I go to sleep...drama...my dreams consist of dramatic scenarios...everything I eat comes with a side order of drama...!! I barely remember what it's like to live a normal day to day life. Why, oh why is it that I tried to take my simple little puppy on a simple little walk today and I got attacked by a random fortune teller?!! I was calmly strolling along, minding my own damn business when a man in a turban comes SPRINTING out of the corner store, practically jumps in front of me and proceeds to tell me about all the stuff he can see about my life surrounding me just by looking at my forehead! My FOREHEAD dog?? Like, are u kidding me?? I tried to walk past him, but he was blocking my path and the bastard wouldn't move!! He just kept yelling random things! I secretly tried to indicate to my dog to bite him or at least pee on his leg, but of course, being the loving little bugger she is, she just kept licking his shoe! The worst part about this story was that every word coming out of the crazy man's mouth was on point!! It was all true! It was stuff that I didn't even want to hear about! I tried to cover my forehead so that he wouldn't be able to read anymore but he just laughed at me and kept right on talking! Then he had the nerve to tell me if I wanted to hear more, I had to pay him $30 dollars!! At that point I had to fight the urge to kick him in the shin!! Just when I was starting to get into the reading, he had to stop and ask for payment!! I was sooo cheeeesed!!!

I wish I could tell u guys what he was saying but he made me promise not to utter a single word. Apparently it's bad luck or sumthing. Who the hell knows!!!
Is that normal?? Did that same scenario happen to any of ya'll today? Probably not, right? Now that's just one story....I can go on for ages but unfortunately I have to get ready for work. I had to share this madness with somebody. By this time tomorrow I'm sure I'll have at least 8 more of these messed up tales to tell u becuz I work with crackheads! Not the staff, but the people that come into my club. They are crackheads. They say and do things that I can't even describe. And I'm front row and center, to take it all in. Am I not the luckiest girl in the world??!!!

Ps: Why did I pick that display picture for this blog? No reason really! I figured I'd pick a random photo for my random life!!

xoxo

Miss Taylor

I had to...

2009-05-27T00:05:00.002-04:00

Excuse my perverted sence of humour, but I thought this pic was just toooo funny and cute not to share with all of u!!!

ENJOY!!

Slaaaaackinngggg!!

2009-05-26T23:26:00.004-04:00

Yeah yeah...what can I say? When the weather gets warm I lose all focus! There's shopping to be done, bbq's to attend and most importantly BIKINIS to FIT INTO!!! My boot camp starts this week. I literally haven't been on a workout program since last winter. I'm a tad bit nervous. My trainer is pretty hardcore but I'm thinking if I whine consistently and shed a few tears here and there, he might just go easy on me!!

Other than that, life is great! I know u wouldn't think so after ready my last super-dramatic post, but things always have a way of working themselves out and turning around for the better. Someone up there must really love me!! I'll be doing an intense 22 hour weekend course next weekend. That's 11 hours of learning per day for 2 whole days! It's gonna be crazy, but it's almost imperative for me to succeed as a planner. So I'm looking forward to it!

I'm going to be posting some video blogs very soon. Of what u ask? You'll have to wait and see.....I should have my first one done in the next few weeks...so stay tuned!!

Love u all!!

xoxo

Miss Taylor

Battling Nature

2009-05-19T19:59:00.006-04:00

SOooo my puppy got her period today. I'm so upset! She's only 8 months! She pretty much just stepped her little paws onto God's green Earth and already she has to deal with PMS, bloating, cramps, and teeny tiny tampons. This is horrible! The worst part about it is that my mother is a TOTAL germaphobe and is disgusted by the idea of a menstruating puppy under her roof. She won't even go near the poor little pup. So you know what that means? My little Chloe's gonna have to get FIXED!! Now I don't know what the actual process is when a female doggy gets "fixed" but I do know that that shyt doesn't sound like fun! I also know that she'll probably very uncomfortable and in a lot of pain when it's over. It hurts me to know that this poor little helpless creature is going to have to endure such pain just to reverse nature.

I wish I could help her! But I can't. I can't even help myself. You see, I myself am going through something similar to her. I have to go through something extremely painful to reverse nature. Nature drew me to him, nature made me fall madly for him, and due to circumstances beyond my control, I have to endure the painful process to try to reverse the effects of nature...I have to fall out of love. Sometimes I wish there was a procedure for humans where we could go and get "fixed." Maybe have a doctor go inside and alter our hearts so that we no longer feel pain or hurt. Maybe we could pay someone to put together the broken pieces, or seal up the cracks and holes. Or perhaps they could tuck our hearts away a steel box so that no emotions can ever penetrate. Or maybe, they could just remove it all together. I wouldn't mind if they could just take the whole damn thing out. Fuck it! Tina Turner said it best...I quote "Who needs a heart when a heart can be broken."

It's true that a heart can also feel love, happiness, pride, joy, and all that other good stuff. But does any of that matter when u feel defeated, broken and damaged. I think not. I asked myself today, when I have a child in the future, how am going to educate them on how to heal their broken heart? Do I tell them that a broken heart is just like a broken bone? You just try your best to protect it until the time comes for it to heal on it's own. How will they understand when I don't even understand. I don't want to understand. I don't need to understand. All I want to feel is nothing. I just want to be numb.

The B-word

2009-05-07T19:03:00.003-04:00

Ladies and Gentleman, I realized something about myself today.....I am a BITCH!!!! Honestly, I don't even know why I have friends! Something is seriously up with me. I know where it comes from...my mother. I love her to death but man.....when she's in a bad mood, I'd sooner be vacationing in Afganistan than to be in her presence! True story!

Anyways, so today, after I ripped new assholes for about 4 different people, I sat down and tried to figure out why I can't seem to get along with anybody. My conclusion was that not only is it due to my ridiculously severe case of PMS, it's also becuz I'm just really a mean person when I'm mad! Keep in mind, it takes a lot to get me upset. I'm happy and positive 80% of the time. But when that 20% comes around....it's war! I even scare myself! Nobody really bothers to fight back becuz I think the shock of what it actually coming out of my mouth takes over and they can't even pick their mouths off the floor to try and rebuttal. Its awful! It's definitely something I am not proud of. The only reason I'm telling you this is becuz i said some really mean things to someone who means the world to me last night and the guilt has been eating away at me ALLLLL DAYYY!!!

So from today on, I am going to make a conscious effort to lighten the eff up a little!! Even if it means I have to double up on the blog posts just to keep myself from ripping off someone's head and spiting down their neck, I'm up for it! (Eww...sorry...that was totally unnecessary. I'm just trying to get my point across!)

I just thought I'd share that little peice of info with you guys. Admitting our flaws is the first step to recovery....or something like that. *shrugs*

To anyone's feeling's I've hurt over the past 3 days becuz of my PMS infested, hurricane of an attitude....I'm sowwy! :( Kisses to all!!! xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxo

Our Best Friend's Wedding

2009-05-04T14:42:00.009-04:00

Soooo last Friday one of my best friends of 13 years hopped the broom! That's right, that crazy bytch got married!! lol!! Lucky for her she's found the most perfect husband in the WORLD. She could not have looked any more perfect than she did that day. The whole ceremony was absolutely beeeeautiful and the reception was even better. We all had a blast. I would like to take this time to congratulate my beautiful friend Jessica and her wonderful husband Kevin for taking such a huge step and giving us all hope that good men and true love still do exist!!! Pics of tht ceremony coming soon but for now....

Long overdue...

2009-05-04T04:02:00.011-04:00

Ok so these pics are so dusty and crusty and should have been posted FOREVER and a day ago...however, since I've just now risen from the dead, I figure now's a pretty good time to post them!!

There aren't many since I was too absent-minded to bring a camera, (Thank u Hadia for being smart enough to carry one with u!!) but here's a little sneak peek at my lovely, intimate, wonderful b-day dinner party!!

The next Morning....

Time to clean...

Suzy, as usual, wakes up having more energy than one should ever have after a night of partying!!!

ALL IN ALL IT WAS A PERFECT NIGHT!! THANK YOU TO ALL MY GIRLES THAT CAME OUT TO CELEBRATE. A SPECIAL THANK YOU TO MY BABY WHO MADE SURE EVERYTHING WENT SMOOTHLY! LOVE YOU ALL!!! LET'S DO IT AGAIN NEXT YEAR SHALL WE?!?!

xoxo

Miss Taylor

I'M BAAAAACKKKK....!!!

2009-05-04T03:50:00.003-04:00

Ohhhh mannnn does it feel good to be back!! Why the hell did I leave in the first place you ask? Well...I felt I needed a break. I went through a bit of a transition stage and I had to question whether I should continue to blog or not. What brought me back you ask? Well the amount of hate mail i started to receive threatening my life if I didn't start blogging again began to add up. I started receiving late night anonymous phone calls where random readers would call and whisper over and over "bring it back bytch....BRING IT BAAAAACK..." That type of stuff starts to scare you after a while, so I said Hey, what the hell! And here I ammmmm!!! It's been a long time...I shouldn't of left you. But the good news is, I have a LOT of stuff to talk about as I have now entered a new stage in my life. I am truly happy, I am truly blessed, and no one...I mean NO ONE is going to bring me down!!
I love you all! Thank you for your patience with my on going disappearing act!

Stay tuned!!

xoxoo

Miss Taylor

PINK!!!

2009-04-08T21:40:00.004-04:00

Call me crazy, but I this video is one of my FAVOURITE videos of all time! I wish I was in it! Why? Well 3 reasons: 1) I'm crazy....2) I LOVE Aerosmith (true story! I bet you would have NEVER guessed that huh?...and 3) Pink really is my favourite colour! So you see folks, it would only be appropriate that I would star in the video....however it didn't quite work out that way, seeing as I was only 11 when it came out. REGARDLESS, Love the song, love the video, and if U happen to be reading this Steven Tyler, I LOVE U TOO!!!!!!!!

How well do YOU know YOU??

2009-03-31T00:47:00.003-04:00

All About Me Survey from Quizopolis.com

This is a powerful test to see how well u know yourself. I literally completed this in less than 2 minutes without even thinking about the answers...they just came out. I always talk about how important it is to be your own best friend and to know yourself inside and out. It's funny completely a few sentences can teach you so much about yourself, as a person. How well do YOU know YOU??
Quizopolis.comhttp://www.quizopolis.com/all_about_me_survey.php

I Am- A strong minded beautiful woman
I Want - the best life has to offer me
I Have - a life filled with blessings
I Wish - that I could be motivated to do better everyday
I Hate - not knowing what the future holds
I Fear - being disappointed
I Hear - my inner voice guiding me
I Search - for answers within myself
I Wonder - what my purpose is in life
I Regret - wasting so much time
I Love - to love
I Ache - to feel what I give out
I Always - try to see the good in every situation
I Usually - am a positive thinker
I Am Not - easily forgotten
I Dance - when i feel like it
I Sing - whenever I want
I Never - say never
I Rarely - open up to strangers
I Cry - when i hurt inside
I Am Not Always - confident in myself
I Lose - my temper
I'm- Confused - a lot of the time
I Need - to feel complete
I Should - spend more time with my family
I Dream - of living happily ever after

BLOGGIN' IS MY HOBBY!!

2009-03-30T15:52:00.003-04:00

YOU HEARD IT HERE FIRST!! SO WHEN IT BECOME A SMASH HIT, YA'LL KNOW WHO TO GIVE WRITER'S CREDIT TO!! LOL!!

PAGE, SMOKE N MIRRORS, HOLLA AT CHA GURL!!!

And I thought I was an impulse buyer!

2009-03-30T15:41:00.004-04:00

Confessions of a Shopaholic part 2??? I think so!! We went in for a blender and came out with isles 1 thru 24 of Kitchen Stuff Plus. That little head u see poking out would be mine....4 hours later! I'm hungry, tired and wondering why the hell I didn't just go in for the blender myself! Only problem is, he forgot he drove a little toy car and NOT a Greyhound bus!! Keep in mind the ENTIRE trunk is also overflowing with purchases. Consequently, Ashley drowns in shopping bags. Good times....

Hellllooo!!!

2009-03-30T15:21:00.005-04:00

Ok, so this past week I've been SUUUUUPPPERRRR busy! I'm sorry I haven't had time to post consistently. Lately my days have been jam packed with running errands and organizing little events I have coming up very soon. Soooo, a lot has changed since my last post! To start, I am now 1 whole entire year older. That's right guys. For those of u who don't know, I had a birthday on Friday March 27th 2009. I am now officially old. And no, I will no share exactly how old. A lady never tells!! Thank u for the overwhelming amount of Facebook b-day shoutouts. I will NEVER be able to get back to all of u, but please accept my great big general THANK YOU!! You guys are awwwwsssomme! Other than that, I will be extremely busy over the next month. Things are looking up for ur girl. I'm going to be spending a lot of time developing my business and getting the opportunity to be working with some of the most talented people in the city. So stay tuned! There will also be quite a few exciting changes made to this very blog so look out for them!

I will be posting pics from my highly anticipated little post b-day exclusive dinner party so check back soon to get a glimpse of those! I'm sure they'll be quite entertaining!!

This is why I love him

2009-03-25T18:45:00.003-04:00

By now I'm sure you all know how much I ADORE Mr. Pharrell Williams. He just seems so cute and dopey (just how I like 'em) Check him out at an airport McDonalds in Paris. He attempts to entertain the employees with his little song on dance, however, they just seem annoyed and confused. Don't they know real talent when they see it???? Shooot.....if he walked into my McDonalds....it'd be a whooollle other story!!

Enjoy!!

Love, Sex, Magic

2009-03-23T18:17:00.004-04:00

Mannnn this video is HAWT!!!! These two have CRAZY chemistry. It almost makes you wonder what kind of Love, Sex and Magic they got themselves into....hmmmmm???

Ciara rips this one with her stripper-like movements and of course JT is just effortlessly sexy as usual. I have to say, I wasn't too fond of this song until I saw the video. I'm sold. One cold shower later I can proudly give this video 2 sexy thumbs wayyyy up!

Enjoy!!

Baddest Bytch

2009-03-21T19:15:00.003-04:00

So I know it may seem like I have an obsession with various model chicks these days, but that's not really the case. Truth is, as summer gets closer by the day, I've been scanning the internet looking at model sites to see if I can find the type of body I should be striving to achieve. (It's just one of those things girls do!! Get over it!)

I know that at the end of the day, celebrities are celebrities, in all of their airbrushed glory. However I can't help but wish a little genie would pop out of a magic lamp and grant me just onnnnne teeeeny tiiiiiny wish: To have the body of Esther "I-her-stinkin-guts-" Baxter!!!!

It's just NOT fair!!!!

IT'S REALLY NOT FAIR!!! LIKE......

WHOOOOOO looks like that???

And whaaaaaaat are they eating!?!?!?

Dear Esther Baxter,
Please disappear from the face of this planet. I can't stand looking at you. It fills my heart with anger. But before you go, kindly cut off ur head and donate your body to me.
Thanks

Love Always,

Miss Taylor
xoxoxo

On my mind...

2009-03-19T13:47:00.004-04:00

So I don't really have anything particular to talk about right now. I just felt the burning desire to blog about what's on my mind, which is this.......I want you all to know, that I, Ashley Taylor am very verrrry easy to get along with. I'm a very simple person. Some may say I'm hard to please, and for argument's sake, that may be so. However, there's not very many things that I truly let bother me. You see, I was blessed with an amazingly strong and accurate gut instinct. I know the difference between good people and bad people. I recongnize the realness in some, and the fakeness in most. I see the hartid behind the smiles. I don't have time to figure out where it's coming from. I don't really give a flying fuk anymore either. If there is something I've done to offend you, then by all means, hate away. But if you're just a natural born, negative-vibed, bad minded individual with nothing better to do then critizise by blog and rip apart what you THINK I'm about then....peace be with you. There's nothing I can do for you. You're fucked and you're probably going to Hell. Soooo...good luck in life! :)

Like I said, I am a simple person. I don't have any space in my brain to even begin to comprehend why people are the way they are. I am far too busy getting excited over things like the 3 dozen chocolate and vanilla CUSTOM MADE buttemilk cupcakes I just ordered for my birthday party!!! Yessss!! They're gonna be gooooooodddd!!! I can hardy wait!! So while screw faced beeitches sit around going through my photos on Facebook one by one, I'm jumping up and down on my bed axiously awaiting the arrival of my birthday dessert. No wonder you hate me!! I'd hate me too!!

xoxo

Miss Taylor

Ps: I'm not on some cocky Kanye shyt, I'm just tired of people TRYING to bring be down. It's not gonna happen not now, not ever. SO please excuse my arrogance. I just had to let it out. Wheeww...I feel better now.

Ask Yourself....

2009-03-16T23:54:00.003-04:00

Greetings everyone! Hope all is well.

I just got home from a coffee run with my one of bestest in the word, Natalina (I love u Poons). We got to talkin about some of the issues going on in our lives right now and of course, the conversation tuned to the topic of men. She shared with me a quote which I thought was very simple yet so effective. It's a little something that us ladies (and gentlemen) should stop and ask ourselves next time we're going over that little hump with our significant others, or even just a potential love interest. Here it is: "If this individual doesn't make me smile everyday, are they really worth my time?" Now when I stopped to think about this I decided that this could very well be the easiest, most straight forward method of finding out if you're going to be happy with someone or not.

It's not even necessary to speak to that person everyday. The thought of them alone should be enough to put a smile on your face. Not just any smile either! It should be one of those super goofy stupid smiles that take over your face when you think about something that they said or did. And it should occur and the most random times, like when your pushing your cart down the snack isle at the grocery store and you see "Munchies" on sale for $3.99 and you start giggling uncontrollably becuz you remember how cute he is when he's munching on his Munchies...and everyone in the store is staring at you cuz you're all by yourself laughing like a friggin lunatic while you fill your cart with 16 bags of Munchies......Or maybe that's just me!! Yes...perhaps I'm alone on that one! But you get my point!

Anyone who's worth thinking of will cross your mind several times a day. Those thoughts should bring a smile to your face every time. Not to mention the happy dance that you should feel compelled to perform when you see that person's name display on your caller I.D. It doesn't matter WHERE you are! Being able to drop everything and engage in some happy dancing when he/she calls you is a sure sign of a solid future. Take it from me!!

So to the one that makes me smile countless times a day, I thank you. I thank you for all the funny memories that play in my mind over and over. Thank you for still giving me butterflies when the little smiley face next to your name on my Blackberry messenger lights up. Thank you for being my inspiration to watch the Food Network and learning to make something other than grilled cheese sandwiches. And last of all, thank you for having such a sexy caller I.D picture which makes me stop and do the running man, crip walk, Harlem shake a little bit of a Dutty Wine when you call me. True story.....

Relationships are never perfect. Not every day will be flawless. However, you know that person is truly special if they never fail to make you smile.

Xoxo

Miss Taylor

SPRING!!!

2009-03-13T13:48:00.005-04:00

To those of you who don't know (which is probably majority of u!) I, Ashley Taylor ADORE Spring!!! The beautiful early sunrises and romantic late sunsets, the sweet songs the three little birdies chirping outside my window, the buds blossoming, covering the winter nakedness of the trees....ahhhh....SPRING!

I love this magical season for more reason than one. First of all, I am a spring baby. My birthday in on the 27th of March. (Flowers, candy and other gifts can be delivered to my house via Fed-Ex. Any one interested can hit me up for a delivery address at the end of this blog ! :)
There's something special about turning one year older during the spring. As the weather makes that transition from disturbingly frigid to beautifully mild, it's almost as though I feel like my life is also making a transition along with the seasons. The world begins to look a little different. My perception of certain things change dramatically. I start to appreciate the little things that make life worth living.

I finally feel motivated to put down that third jelly doughnut and maybe even pick up a razor. I think about how unattractive a mane of leg hair might appear should I decide to rock a pair of capris. I come to terms with the fact that my gym really isn't a Hell filled with overcaffinated, anorexic/bulimic/ freaks or steroid pumped meatheads. I accept that while they might appear that way, they too are normal people just like you and me. I even consider reuniting with them in attempt to rid myself of the belly rolls and back fat that I have acquired over the winter months.

I find myself wanting to pick up the phone and make an emergency appointment with my esthetician for a pedicure. Becuz it's no longer fun to pick up pieces of carpet as I walk around bare foot in my house. Crusty feet might be ok in the winter, in fact I actually find that the extra layers of hardened skin help to keep my toes warm on those really cold days. But Spring is quickly approaching, so these old habits must be gone.

And while I contemplated growing my leg hair long enough to be able to shave it, dye it and perhaps make a weave, I've recently decided that surely would not be the most lady-like thing in world. Funny as hell, yes, lady-like, definitely not!

LOL!!

Ok, ya'll know I would NEVER let myself get that far off point!!

But I've officially checked myself into Boot Camp! I've purchased the Kanye West workout video and before you know it, imma be red carpet worthy. I'm ready! Are u?
If not, allow me to post some motivational footage just for you!!

ENJOY!!

Amber Rose

2009-03-09T17:47:00.006-04:00

Ok so by now we've probably all heard about Kanye West's new plaything. She goes by the name of Amber Rose and for some reason, I am so intrigued by her. She's a former stripper who is working her way up to leads in music videos with hopes of scoring a big movie role in the near future. ( Great role model huh?? lol!)Not too many people come long that really capture my attention like this girl has. She is insanely bold, borderline grimey and completely stunning. While reading an interview she had with Smooth Magazine, I was blown away by how open she was about her sex life. She just put it out there like "SPLAT!! I like sex...and what..." Not only that, in case you didn't notice, the bytch is bald! She claims she's so comfortable and confident in her natural beauty that she doesn't need to hide it behind a bunch of hair. With Kanye by her side, there's no doubt that it's only a matter of time before this video vixen reaches star status. I approve! Go on girl!

The Awakening

2009-03-06T16:58:00.004-05:00

Every now and then we'll find ourselves in a situation where somebody might express an opinion about you that is totally false and borderline offensive. When this occurs, out first reaction is to play the victim role. We might get overly emotional over the comment or become extremely defensive. We ask ourselves, how DARE he/she have that particular image of me in their mind? More so, how DARE they even have the nerve to express it that way! We spend all kinds of time dwelling and perhaps even beating ourselves up over it, when really, the logical thing to do would be this: Ask yourself what it is that YOU put out there to cause any individual to form that particular opinion of you that you find so very offensive. What have you done to contribute to that image? How are you different from the person they are accusing of being? Today, I had a wake up call. At first, I would consider it more of a slap in the fucking face, but when I thought about it more, I took it as a blessing in disguise.

Now, I'm no super feminist or anything, but myself, as a young women, can sometimes be lured into believing that if you happen to look a certain way, the world will be handed to you on a silver patter. We listen to song after song of rappers like Jay-Z talking about all the shopping sprees and first class private jet trips he wants to provide for his "girl". Sure, it sounds nice and all, but here's what I say to you Jigga man; Please take your private jet, unlimited credit cards, and endless cash flow, shine them up real nice, turn that son of a bytch sideways, and shove it right up your candy ass!! (Sorry, I couldn't resist!) All your shiny blingin' bullshit is blinding me from accomplishing my real goal: To be an independent, self sufficient, strong black, beautiful woman! Sure you got the hottest chick in the game wearing your chain but guess what Hov, she was the hottest chick in the game even before you started playing by her rules.

Today, I had to stop and ask myself what it is I'm putting out there that might give others the slightest idea that I need or even WANT to be taken care of. I was never told by anyone that anything in this world would ever be handed to me on a silver platter. Who in my life was really gonna tell me that? Perhaps my single mother who has worked her fingers to the bone to ensure that all of her chidren were spoiled brats? Not quite. Along the way, I have been sidetracked. I'm not to proud ti admit that. However, what I have come to realize is that when I came into this world, I was alone. I didn't come out of the womb with a sugar daddy trailing behind me. So, then why 22 years later should I be looking over my shoulder to see if there's one to fall back on?

In attempt to ensure nobody is OFFENDED by my opinion in this posting, I'm gonna keep this short and sweet.

It's said that women are nurturers while men are providers. My main focus is to nurture my bank account with large amounts and provide myself with the satisfaction of knowing I did it on my own.

Take this in...

M.I.A

2009-03-05T13:41:00.004-05:00

Once again, I know I've been sloppy with my blog postings. Forgive me. I'm sick!! I have a bad cold that I caught from my lovely friend Sade! Thanks again bytch!! It all took place on a lovely bus trip to CasinoRama, on a lovely Saturday morning. It was going to be my first time going to the casino and actually gambling, so I was very excited! I was ok with the 62 hour bus ride cuz the seats were comfortable and I was feeling lucky!

When we pulled up, one of the reps from the casino came on the bus to greet us and make sure we all had our I.D to prove we're over 19. When it came time for her to check mine, I confidently reached into my wallet and pulled out my bank card, mistaking it for my health card which I then remembered was sitting on my dresser at home, a million freakin miles away. Needless to say, I was f*cked!!! They didn't even CONSIDER letting my ass in!! They turned me away in disgust!! I begged and pleaded and even faked a few tears but all I kept hearing was "Policy, Policy, Policy...." Screw you Casino guards!!! Ya'll take ur jobs wayyyyyy too seriously! Anyway, I ended up at the hotel spa next door with my lovely friend Sade, leaving behind my lovely friend Leah, who put the whole trip together in the first place!! And if I wasn't such a dingbat, we all could have enjoyed a day at the old casino together!! But noooo!! Instead, Sade and I enjoyed spa treatments, gossip magazines and a lovely lunch and the hotel restaurant.

WHERE WAS I GOING WITH THIS STORY AGAIN?????

Oh yeah...I was explaining why I'm sick right?? Ok well somewhere between the pedicure and the club sandwich, Sade must have coughed on me or something cuz now I'm sitting here in a robe with tissue stuffed up my nose. Sexy huh??
I would take a picture and post it but I could almost guarantee I would lost at least 75% of my readers.

Ok well starting now I will be more consist ant with my postings! Promise!!
I'm working on a loooooooooot right now and I'm getting more and more excited about spring/summer coming.

So stay tuned, and please forgive my slacking!!

Luv you guys!!
xoxo

A little appreciation

2009-02-27T15:32:00.006-05:00

Let me ask you guys a question: How many of you are truly thankful to be alive? I mean, like you wake up everyday and reflect on how fourtunate you are to have a bed to sleep in, food to eat, clothes on your back and a roof over your head? I find more and more, our generations is made up of a bunch of people that take life for granted. We would rather spend more time talking on out Blackberries about how many bottles we popped or how many pairs of shoes we have thank being thankful that we live in a county where so many things are practically handed to us. To make matters worse, we have the nerve to complain about the stupidest, most insignificant things such as the lineup at the LCBO on a friday night or the fact that we had to wait 30 minutes to be seated at that trendy new restuarant downtown.

I'm just as guilty as any of you for doing this. When my laptop crashes, its the end of the word for me. If I sleep in and miss my pilates class at the gym, all hell breaks loose. But recently, I've learned to take time out to refelect on my many blessings. There is so much I take for granted on a daily basis. For example the fact that I am blessed with 4 siblings, and 2 strong healthy parents, the fact that I have the opputunity to share my stories with all of you, that fact that I have the ability to type, the vision to read and the common sence to do a spell check at the end of it so that I appear smarter than I actually am!! ;)

I challenge all of you to take a good look at your own lives. Some of you may be going through some hard times emotionally right now. I understand. Just keep in mind, there will always be someone else in the world going through something a little more unfourtunate than you. And if that's not enough to bring you comfort, stop and count your blessings. Sunshine is hard to see through the storm, however storms are only temporary. So for a few minutes a day, just take the time out to say one simple word "Thanks!"

Baby Makin' Muzik

2009-02-24T01:14:00.006-05:00

I'm literally sitting here with goosebumps jammin to Lissa Monet's newest mixtape "Lovestoned Vol. 003- Behind Closed Doors".

If you are not ready to enter parenthood yet DO NOT LISTEN TO THIS ALBUM!!!!!!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!! BABIES WILL BE MADE!!! I guarantee this!

AMAZING!! ALL I CAN SAY IS AMAZING!!! I'M WRITING IN ALL CAPS BECAUSE A SPECIAL TYPE OF FRUSTRATION IS STARTING TO COME OVER ME AND IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER TO WRITE IN ALL CAPS!! DON'T ASK WHY, JUST DOWNLOAD THIS MASTERPIECE!!!!

download here:

http://www.zshare.net/download/55298454eaf384c0/

Middle Child Syndrome

2009-02-23T22:02:00.008-05:00

Hi everyone, my name is Ashley Taylor and I suffer from middle child syndrome. I've been a middle child for 11 long years now. I have an older sister as well as an older brother. Exactly 11 years ago, when I was just 11 years old, I got bumped from the baby of the family to the second youngest. I accepted this only because my new baby sister, Jaden was too damn adorable for me to even think about putting her an a basket and setting her on the doorstep of a random young couple and tying to convince my parents that the stork took her back to Babyland. So I embraced it. I happily took on the title of "big sister." Life was good.

Then the unthinkable happened. Two years later, my dear mother decide it would be cute to pop out another. This time a boy. My new baby brother Jared, then became the baby of the Taylor family. What did this mean for poor Ashley? This meant that poor Ashley, who was once the star of the show, was now bumped to the middle. Now I can assure you, at the time, I was 13 and had no problem sharing the attention with my two younger siblings. In fact, less attention on me meant that I can get away with staying up that extra hour on a school night, or sneaking on a tab bit of lipgloss before heading to the mall with friends on Friday evenings. I loved it!!!

However, over the years, little attention turned into hardly any, which turned into none, which has presently turned into looks of confusion on the faces of my family members as they struggle figure out why there's a stranger in the kitchen making Eggo waffles. Well!! I'll tell you why!! It's becuz I fu#kin LOVE EGGO WAFFLES!!!! They used to know that! Everyone used to know that! In fact they used to bring waffles to me on a tray, while I lay in bed, marveled at the fact that they never forgot to add extra butter and syrup....jusssst the way I like it! I USED TO BE LOVED DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What's worse is that some of you know that I am the darkest in my family!! I swear to God, I live with the Simpsons! Every member of my family is a funny shade of yellow except me. I got the chocolate goodness thanks to my dad!! (Thanks Daddy! :) And the joke is, I'm not even that dark skinned so you can only IMAGINE how light the rest of the fam is!!

Look at this tomfoolery!!!

Crazy right!! Cuz it's not enough that I'm the hated middle child, but I have to be the only non yellow one too!!!!

You guys might think I'm being sensitive or dramatic, but MCS (Middle Child Syndrome) is not to be taken lightly. My friends still refer to me as "The Mailman's daughter!" I find myself doing stupid things to get attention...for example, eating the last tea biscuit even though I know my mom wanted it, just so she could acknowledge me even if it means screaming at the top of her lungs and sending me to the store to buy more.

Where's the love?? THERE IS NONE LEFT FOR ME!!! The two youngest get the most obviously, becuz they're the babies. Then the two oldest becuz they were here first, and by the time it gets around to pay a little love to the left over kid, there's not a single drop left! So I go without any. Then I become bitter so I turn to others, such as my friends and significant other to make it better. Do you know what I get told in return? "Ashley, you're too hard to please." "Ashley, you're too spoiled. Stop being a diva." Or my personal favourite "Ashley, your so selfish! It's can't always be all about YOU!"

The other day I woke up, completely alone in my house. I had no idea where anyone was becuz of course, nobody thought I was important enough to leave me a note on my door or even a half ass text message! I wondered through the house until I got to the room where we keep all our family photo albums. I decided to take a moment to stop and look through them in attempt to lift my spirits. As I sat on the floor, flipping through the pages, I saw images of happiness and childhood memories, that had now become so distant, I almost forgot they even existed. There had to been about 4 albums dedicated completely to me! My parents had carefully selected fantastic photos of me on school trips, riding my first bicycle, taking my first steps, cutting my birthday cake, etc. Each photo revealed the joy writen all over my face as I marveled in all the attention and focus that was put on me. I was the shining star. That's all it took for me to be happy!

I'm not gonna share all the symptoms of MCS with you right away. I don't want any of you to think I'm overly odd. Just try to understand why I do some of the things I do. I am an attention-deprived-22-year-old-middle-child!!! Have pity on my soul!!!

My new whip

2009-02-18T20:49:00.003-05:00

Ok I just wanted to share a few pics of my new car. It's being shipped in from L.A and personally delivered to me by none other than Paris Hilton. In case you guys have seen her driving around in my car on shows like TMZ of Entertainment Tonight, keep in mind she's just testing it for me. I've paid her big bucks to make sure it runs nice and smooth. It'll be arriving in a few weeks. Stay tuned!!

LOL!!

SURRRRRRRRREEE!!!!

I adore this vehicle!! If I had it my way, I probably wouldn't have picked Pepto-Bismal pink but either way, it's hot!!!

Buzzed

2009-02-15T04:05:00.004-05:00

Sooo....I just got home from my bartending gig and I must say, I made a killing tonight!!! yay!! I decided to keep my energy up by sipping 3 Redbulls. Consequently, I'm now home, in bed, WIDE AWAKE and very jittery. I'm looking around my room at all the things that should be making me smile, but instead, I'm frowning!! Which gave me the idea to share some things that I witnessed tonight at the club that I, Ashley Taylor, frown upon!!

* I frown upon stick thin, no curve having, girls that think it's cute to come out in their little sister's t-shirts and play them off as dresses.

*I frown upon those that "bubble" to Dr. Dre

*I frown upon people whose drink comes up to $4.75, hand me a $5 bill and wait for me to give them their quarter back

* I frown upon the girl who wore a red shirt and pink pants. There's never a need to be so unattractively festive, not even if it was the last Valentine's Day of this era

* I frown upon the little red head man who kept referring to me as "Caramel" all night

* I frown upon the "Baller" who acted like the $4.00 tip he left me on his $6.00 Heineken was enough to send my future children to university

* I frown upon the people that boycott gum and/or breath mints after eating rotten garlic cloves out of a downtown dumpster. These are the ones that like to get all up in my face and whisper their order right into my nostrils. I FROWN!!!

* I frown upon whoever thought it would be ok to take their mother to the club with them and allow her to do the Willy Bounce on the podium

* I frown upon the group of whores in the VIP that think SWEAR they're on the Hills. Do u see a camera crew up in this piece?? Cuz I certainly don't!

* I frown upon whoever fondled my bum and then stole my MAC lip gloss out of my back pocket on my way to the bathroom. I guess you needed it more than I did?

* I frown upon DJ's that think it's fun to play the theme song to Fresh Prince in the middle of a hot set. I just don't see where that could possibly fit in...

* I frown upon bouncers that weigh less than I do. For some reason I just don't feel safe under your supervision

* I frown upon girls that think for second it would be appropriate to dance on the bar. I'll karate chop a bytch! Don't test me when I have Redbull in my system!

* I frown upon the fact that it's 4:30 am and I have so much fakin energy!! No ones awake and I have no choice but to blog to all YOU people!! Mannn....I love you guys!
What would I do without ya??

xoxo

Miss Taylor

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

2009-02-14T22:15:00.003-05:00

Flowers are beautiful
Purfume is lovely
Chocolate is delicious
Music is timeless
Sweet words are comforting
The effort was much appreciated

But at the end of the day....all I wanted was a promise....

Happy Valentine's Day

In Conclusion...

2009-02-12T14:13:00.004-05:00

Breakups are tough. Especially when they occur a few days before Valentine's Day. It's not the easiest thing in the world to try to act strong and independant when everywhere you go you see couples dry humping each other in the middle of the street. Who the hell invented such a stupid fu*kin day anyways??? What a waste of 24 hours! Am i bitter? Can u tell? However, me being the super positive ray of sunshine that I am, have decided to look on the bright side of this whole shitty situation. It took almost a year of stress, fights, and tears for me to realize what I really want out of life/love. And for the first time throughout this journey, I can walk away smiling. I have loved, I have laughed and I have learned all I've needed to learn. In case you didn't notice I'm still alive!! Which can only mean that crock of bullshit only made me stronger! The games have ended...I can finally breathe, recoup, and reinvent myself. When relationships fail, it's hard to accept, but I know that it would have been harder had I not tried my best. People are like fine wine, they only get better with age. I feel I only get better with experience. I hold no grudges nor do I have any shit talking left in my system. It's all love and I thank him for finally allowing me to get off the roller coaster. It was a ride of a lifetime, one that I will never forget.

AND ON THAT NOTE.....this is totally random but someone on Facebook asked me if I feel comfortable posting pics of me bare faced with no make-up. My answer is yes!!!

Coach for Clo Clo!!!

2009-02-12T12:23:00.004-05:00

So I found the most perrrrrrrrrrrrfect gift for my little puppy Chloe (*Pronounced Clo-ee for those of u that keep callin her Clee-o!) This will ensure that when we travel, my little princess travels in style, just like the rest of the Taylor fam. Have a look!

WAKE UP CALL!

2009-02-10T12:54:00.002-05:00

With all this "He's Just Not That Into You" stuff going around, woman are more confused than ever!! Let's look at what a real woman's opinion about men....

HEAR WHAT OPRAH WINFREY HAD TO SAY ABOUT MEN

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't 'be friends'. A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is

Don't stay because you think 'it will get better'

You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.

He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything.* He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behaviour.* Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...

Even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...

Compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...

There is nothing cute about baggage...

Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...

A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...

Look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted

Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.*

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Scared of being alone is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful
You should know that:

You're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one.

They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices.
Make the right one.

Ladies take care of your own hearts....

AMEN!!

She's royal...So royal

2009-02-09T18:50:00.008-05:00

I feel it's only right that I pay homage to most amazingly stunning, diva-licious, GORRRRRGEOUS, supermodel to top all supermodels.....MISS NAOMI CAMPBELL (aka "The Black Panther aka. My Chocolate Goddess)!!!

Name : Naomi Campbell
Nickname : Black Panther
Date of Birth : 22 May 1970
Place of Birth : Streatham, London, England, UK
Height : 5' 10''
Education : London Academy For Performing Arts
Nationality : British
Profession : model, actor
Claim to Fame : one of the top supermodels in the fashion industry with appearances on the covers of British Elle, French Vogue, British Vogue and Time Magazine
Agencies : New York - Ford, Paris - Elite, Milan - Riccardo Gay, London - Premier.

She's a Man Eater! Have a look at this extensive list of men that have had the honor of being within 10 feet of her greatness:

Boyfriend: Mohammad Al-Habtoor (Arab shiek), Prince Albert II (prince)
Boyfriend: Andre Balazs (owner of Chateau Marmont in Los Angeles, dated 2004-07)
Boyfriend: Flavio Briatore (Renault and Benneton race car proprietor)
Boyfriend: Eric Clapton (rock'n'roller)
Boyfriend: Adam Clayton (U2 bassist, broken engagement 1990s)
Boyfriend: Sean "Puff Daddy" Combs (rapper)
Boyfriend: Joaquín Cortés (Spanish flamenco dancer)
Boyfriend: Robert De Niro (actor), Leonardo DiCaprio (actor)
Boyfriend: Pedro Diniz (Brazilian race car driver)
Boyfriend: Joseph Fiennes (actor), Robert Goode (nightclub owner)
Boyfriend: Badr Jafar (Dubai-based millionaire playboy)
Boyfriend: Guy Laliberté (founder of Cirque du Soleil)
Boyfriend: Tommy Lee (Mötley Crüe), Sérgio Marone (Brazilian actor)
Boyfriend: Matteo Marzotto (heir to Marzotto S.p.A fortune)
Boyfriend: Eddie Murphy (actor), Luca Orlandini (Italian actor)
Boyfriend: Enrique Palacio (Spanish model), Sylvester Stallone (actor)
Boyfriend: Mike Tyson (boxer), Usher (singer)
Boyfriend: Robbie Williams (singer)

PERFECTION!!!!!

Officially Missing You

2009-02-07T18:43:00.004-05:00

I feel ya gurl....mannnn do I feel ya!

FYI: I'm also missing Chicken McNuggets and breakfast at Cora's.....
I only wish Tamia included that in the song somewhere... :(

Cause and Cure

2009-02-07T02:28:00.014-05:00

Ladies and Gentlemen...when it comes to relationships, the fun NEVER ends, does it?? Noo...'course not!! It wouldn't be exciting without all the screams of anger, punch holes in the wall, cell phone hang ups, cancelled dinner plans and suicide attempts, now WOULD it??

SoooOoo tonight, I bring you yet another case. I'm pretty sure this one's pretty common for both men and women. Let's go..!!

Ok, so you and your significant other are in that "Bliss Stage." You know, the stage where you literally eat, breathe and sleep each other's presence 22 out of 24 hours a day. The stage where you go on those long drives, sit in the car for retarded amounts of time, go home and fall asleep on the phone together, only to wake up and venture out to breakfast with them early the next morning. You start to spend so much time together that, oddly enough you begin to look like each other!! I mean, if you get a zit, they'll get one in the EXACT same place cuz chances are, whatever caused you to get one, is probably the same reason they have one too! You both start walking around with shabby hair and wrinkled clothing cuz in the morning, when you were SUPPOSED to be grooming, you two were too busy starring at each other in mirror talking about what beautiful babies you're gonna have, and you completely neglected to flip your bangs and iron your Apple Bottoms.

Then the time comes where you wake up, wrapped in their arms, and realize that you haven't seen your own family, friends, cell phone (or clothing ) for 5 days straight! It then hits you that your ENTIRE world revolves around this one person, who in your eyes, is the light of your life. It's a good feeling. I mean, I'm all about balance and everything, but it's hard to have anything to do with anything else when you've found your perfect match. Every moment spent with them is precious and cherished. This is called the "Bliss Stage." Eventually, it fades...into deathly darkness...

Fast Forward:

Now you two have become so close and so comfortable with one another, that you can now point out the little things about the other person that irritate the hell out of you. And here my friends, is where the problem begins! After all, we've gotten used to the fact that our hunnie thinks we're perfect! How dare they begin to criticise! So we fight back, and they fight more, and before you f*uckin know it, he's slamming on his brakes in the middle of rush hour traffic, demanding you get the hell out of his car, and your using every ounce of will power you were blessed with to hold yoursef back from burning a hole through his arm with your cigarette!! Not so blissful anymore, is it?!?!? Bahahahahahahahh!!! (*apologizes for evil outburst)

(PS: clearly, I couldn't POSSIBLY be talking about me! I don't smoke!! You know that!! ....)

The plot thickens:

So now you're at a point where you're royally fucked becuz this person has COMPLETE control over your emotions. They decide whether you have a good day, a bad day, and everything in between. Who can you blame, but yourself?? Somewhere down the line (between the romantic dinner dates and the fantastic morning sex) you've handed over all the power in a pretty little gift wrapped package! Oh yes!! You suurrre DID!! And it gets worse! Due to the fact that this person is the center of your universe, now ALLLLLLLL of your problems are becuz of them!!! Your alarm didn't go of and you were late for work all becuz "hunnie" decided to unplug the clock and plug in his cell phone charger! You forgot to call you mother on her birthday becuz "sweetheart" caught the flu and insisted you stay by his bedside all day and attend to his every need! You failed your exam because you and "babykins" stayed up until 5am reaming each other out about the glitter you saw on his face earlier that night, that could have ONLY been put there by a random rubbing her face on his!!

You're a ticking time bomb!!! You're on the verge of insanity!! You need to VENT!! You're anger must be heard! But here's the thing....YOU HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO!!!!! None of your friends wanna hear it!! Why would they? They have their own problems! Besides, when things were all hunky dory in old love land a few weeks before, you didn't even think to pick up the phone and call a single one of them! Why should they help you now that shit's hit the fan??

Ok...hmmmm...think....there's always Mom!!

Oh wait!! Mom's still pissed at you for missing her birthday and sending her a half assed bouquet of wilted roses 3 days later! She hates you! You know this becuz she told you when you called her to see if she received the roses. Not only that, she thinks you're a disgrace to the family! You know this becuz she sent you a cussing continuation text right after she hung up the phone on you in disgust. (Ps: I'd just like to state once again that I couldn't possibly be referring to myself here!! I love my mommy and would never ever forget her birthday!!)

Ok loser! What do you do now? Your girlfriends want none of it, you Mom's at home, reading "Disowning Your Daughter for Dummies" and your online friends will blog about your shyt before you can even get the full story out. Sooooo, you slowly begin to dial those dreaded 10 digits....

While the phone rings, you try to remind yourself who hung up the phone on who last...

He answers: "....Hello....

You reply: "Hey baby...I'm sorry about the way I acted earlier...I'm just going thru some things and...I really wanna see you...

Not only is "Love Muffin" the cause of your horrendous life, but he's become the cure too!!! Nothing can progress until he makes it better! Remember stupid, he has that power!! In a way, you want him to fix it cuz gosh darnit, you still love the bastard. So you go over, make up (in more ways than one!) and everything's perfect again. That is until the next morning when you sleep in 2 hours late, realize that your alarm clock is unplugged and in it's place is a fully charged Blackberry....

Oh the joys of relationships!!!

PS: THIS HAS NOOOOTHING TO DO WITH MY LIFE!!!! I SWEAR IT!!! IT HAPPENED TO A FRIEND OF A FRIEND OF MINE!! TRUE STORY!! :)

Rep Your Block!!! LMAO!!!!

2009-02-06T11:16:00.004-05:00

Ok....so as some of you may know, I'm planning on getting a few tattoos done in the next little while. I'm sure about 2 of them but I'm still browsing for a 3rd. So just happened to be looking through a gallery of a very popular tat artist, and came across something that made me choke on my corn flakes! Now, I'm completely ok with people showing love for their city and "reppin their block" (if u will) but this is just RIDICULOUS!!!!!!!!

Are my eyes decieving me or does that shyt really say PICKERING?!?!??!?!?!?!
LMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pickering isn't even a frigging city!! It's a villiage with a population of like 42!!! We have one mall, one grocery store and a sheriff's office which is closed most of the time!!! That's why we all flock to Facebook. It makes us feel like we're apart of something bigger out there in the real world!! lol!!

Don't get mad!! I'm allowed to say this!! I live here too!! (Hopefully not for much longer!!)

Homeboy might as well ave gotten a picture of the Nuclear Power Plant tattooed in the background!!!

Ok I'm done!! Sorry! I put a shot of Haterade in my cereal this morning! My apologies....

I ain't mad at him!! Rep your city partna!!!!!

Throwbacks!!

2009-02-05T13:29:00.004-05:00

Look at these pics I found from a shoot I did wayyyyyyyyyyyyy back in the day when I thought I was sexy!!! lmao!!

Sorry Mom!!!

...if my future daughter even looks at a camera when she's older I'm gonna poke her eyes out!!

M.U.Z.I.K

2009-02-05T10:50:00.004-05:00

I lovvvvve music! All genres, all artists, all different languages....I just love the stuff!!! I find it amazing how listening to a few seconds of a particular song can instantly bring us back to a moment or period of our past. You get those butterflies in your stomach as your memory is triggered and brought back to the good old days. It's enough to bring tears to your eyes; sometimes happy, sometimes sad.

It's funny, at the time, the song might have been nothing more than a smash hit, receiving more airtime than necessary. But after a few years, hearing it again gives it a whole new meaning. You can appreciate it. It makes you reflect on how different your life is now than it was back then. The lyrics make more sense to you. The beat makes you move in a different way. It's as if you're listening to a whole new song, simply because you're at a different stage in you're life. Do you know what I'm talking about? I'm sure you do. I think everybody has at least one or two that they can think of.

The song I'm about to share with you used to be one of my favourites when I was in grade 5. My crush lip synched it to me at a birthday party and it's been cherished ever since. Recently, this song came back into my life with a vengeance. Its meaning, as I said, has completely changed. Not only do I have a better understanding of the lyrics, but I happen to be living them as we speak. The feeling I get, just from the first 2 notes, is more than I can describe, although, If I tried, I wouldn't quite describe them as butterflies; more like several ferocious dragons ripping apart my insides!! Yes...that's definitely more accurate!!

ENJOY!!!

Random facts about moi

2009-02-02T02:16:00.000-05:00

Soooo...due to the tornado that's ripping apart my life right now, I'm not very creative at this present moment in time!! However, as you can tell, I'm still quite dramatic!! :) SO what I've decided to do is STEAL...yes STEAL a blog topic from a facebook friend of mine where I will share random, useless facts about myself. The reason why is becuz any other topics involves thinking, which unfortunately my brain is not able to do right now. Like I always say, when in doubt, blab about yourself! So here we go...

1) I was born on a Tuesday and for the longest time, I didn't have a name. My little hospital card read "Taylor Girl" where my name was supposed to be inserted. My parents were probably so unenthused about me entering the world that they decided not to name me until they realized they couldn't keep referring to me as "Taylor Girl." They then thought long and hard and came up with "Ashley!" How original!! Love you guys!!

2) My grade 10 history teacher informed me that my name contains "the mark of the Beast" simply because each one contains 6 letters: A-S-H-L-E-Y...R-A-C-H-E-L....T-A-Y-L-O-R!
Isn't that comforting?? I thought so!!

3) My older brother punched my tooth out on my 6th birthday. I was most distraught and refused to go to school.

4) I have a disgustingly horrific fear of insects of all shapes and sizes. From lady bugs to friggin dragon flies! I hate them all!!! (With the exception of butterflies of course)

5) I taught myself to swim in 1 day. 1 single day! I just jumped in the deep end, and figured it out from there. Sadly, I consider this one of my biggest accomplishments in life!

6) I lovvvvve Action movies. They are my favourite! Anything with car chases, explosions, villains, and guns...I'm good to go! Bruce Willis is my hero! However, I HATE HORROR MOVIES!! No thanks!!! I refuse to even be in the same room that a horror movie might be playing in. The movie Saw ruined my life and gave me nightmares for about 8 and a half months. I'm not to old to sleep in my mommy's room! Trust me!!

7) I hide snacks under my bed and eat them in the middle of the night. Nobody ever knows about them becuz I don't share them with anyone! Most often, I keep a box of pecan passion cookies or two bite brownies...but shhh...that's our little secret!!

8) I have a very bad temper. Not a lot of people would know this cuz I'm usually very quiet and conflict free. But those of you who have seen me when I've reached a boiling point...you know what it is!! I am known to throw diva tantrums Naomi Campbell style. What can I say? The lady inspires me!! So if you see my cell phone flying through the air...DUCK BYTCHES!!!!

9) I still sleep with stuffed animals. 3 to be exact. I can't live without them. They need me and dammit, I need them!!

10) I don't sweat or burp!! I think I'm a mutant or something becuz really and truly I can be sprinting in 100+ degrees and not a drop of sweat will leak from my pores. As for burping, the only time one might ever occur is after I drink, like a litre of soda (which I don't ever do). But when I do eventually burp, I get super excited and nobody around me ever understands why. Weird huh?

11) I can't whistle. I used to be able to but for some reason, my grandfather used to tell me that "females weren't supposed to whistle." So I stopped and now I've forgotten how!!

12) I get bored VERY VERRRRRRRRY easily. Let me give you a list of all the recreational activities I've started and quit in my lifetime: swimming, basketball, gymnastics, ballet, dance, soccer, Navy Cadets (don't ask), piano and drumming lessons, yoga, pilates, belly dance, track and field (regrettably), runway classes, flare bartending, ohhh and the list goes onnn and onnnn an onnnn!!!

Are u bored yet?? Ok let's get to the good stuff...

13) I am a very passionate person. I am passionate about life, I am passionate about my future, I am passionate about the things I enjoy doing and the people around me. When I care about something or someone, it becomes the most important thing to me and all my time is spent working on improving it.

14) I'm stupidly ticklish. Like, I almost have a fear of being tickled! It's bad. I feel like I'm having a seizure! It seems to get worse over the years. The older I get the more ticklish I become. By the time I'm 50 I won't even be able to blow my nose without dying of laughter. Can't wait!! :)

15) I hate liars. I HATTTTEEE being lied to!! It makes me crazy. I am a very open and honest person, in case you couldn't tell by now, so I see no reason why people can't extend me the same courtesy. Just tell the freakin truth!! What's the worst that can happen??

16) I am very much in tune to the spiritual world. What does that mean exactly?? I don't know, it just sounded good! No really, I can see people's auras. I can tell right of the bat whether someone is a good person or not. I believe that a lot of answers are given to us in our dreams. I believe very much in soul searching. There's not much more I can say without sounding like a whacked out Miss Cleo, so lets just end it there!

17) I love stupid reality shows; The Bachelor, The Simple Life, The Real World, My BFF, Baldwin Hills, all that junk!! I never follow them closely enough to know what's going on every week, but then I'm bored, it's quite entertaining!!

18) I eat like a piggy. It's been brought to my attention numerous times that I consume more food in a shorter period of time than most guys I know,(especially one in particular that likes to store his food in his cheeks for long periods of time!)
Indeed, I love food, and I would say that eating is probably my favourite thing to do in life. I eat when I'm happy, I eat when I'm sad, I eat when I'm hungry and I eat when I'm full...and no, I don't puke it up afterwords!! Jerks!!
As long as there's no swine, I'm down to dine anytime!! True story...

19) I am a nerd to the core! I'm not cool, I'm not hip, I'm not trendy, I'm not popular. I'm a geek who stays home on weekends and waits till someone is bored enough to phone me. Most of the time when I answer, I come to realize that the person's phone called me by accident becuz I happen to be under "A" in their address book!! LOL!!!

and last but not least....

The pressure's on....

I feel like this last one has to be the best....

Hmmm.....

Ummmm....ok...here I go...Are you ready??

20) My first kiss was in grade 6...his name was Peter!! It was at a birthday party during a stupid game that we REALLY should not have been playing at that age! He had braces. I was so disturbed by the whole event that I didn't kiss again till high school!!

So there you have it! 20 random, useless facts about me!!! Any questions...?

Ps: Shoutout to my little chipmunk cheeks who's probably got a chunk of chicken teriyaki sub stored in his cheek as we speak!! Love you!!!

The Truth

2009-01-31T02:50:00.000-05:00

Man, I feel like a woman

2009-01-26T17:12:00.000-05:00

Ladies, do you ever wake up some mornings, hair all tousled, teeth unbrushed, bare faced, makeup free, eyes still half shut, and you look in the mirror and say to yourself "Damn....I am one SEXY bytch!!! Not in a sarcastic or conceited way; I mean, you say it and you actually mean it?? Well Lord knows I don't!!!! I'm not even gonna lie!!!! In fact, I try to avoid mirrors at all costs until I've showered, lotioned my skin and run a brush through my hair AND teeth! I know we all like to give off the impression (especially to men!) that our beauty is effortless. However, let's face the facts: WE allllll require a little tweaking and maintenance every now and then! Whether we are glam girls or au natural femmes, none of us wake up looking like supermodels! (PS: If your man tells you that you do, HE'S GASSING YOU!! Don't be fooled!!)

So what I'm gonna discuss today are some of the things us, as females do to take us from "blah" to "banging" on a regular basis. Here's what makes us women feel like beautiful goddesses.

Fellas, pay attention!! It's not as effortless as you may think it is:

Personal Hygiene: Nothing makes us feel sexier than when we're wearing a fragrance that we know is amaaaazzzinnng! However, as my mother always used to say "you can't put perfume on a pig!" Which means, being sexy does not include going to the gym, running on the treadmill for 40 mins, doing an hour spin class, bench pressing for another 20 mins, sweating all up and down the place and then spraying on a little J-Lo Glow to cover the rank stench! Soap and water go a looooong way! Skipping showers is a no-no for so many reasons. Masking stinky body odour with thing like creams, deodorant and perfume are only temporary fixes. It will not rid your body of the stinkiness. What's worse, is that you will only end up smelling like a perfumed pig!! Nobody enjoys the smell of strawberry scented sweat! So do yourself a favour and jump in the shower! There is never ever a acceptable reason why a lady should smell putrid! Sorry...it HAD to be said!

Moving right along...I consider my shower my personal beautifying booth. So much can be done while your standing under the water, and this is exactly where a lot of beautifying takes place:

Exfoliating- As most of us should know, dry, ashy skin is NEVER in! The easiest way to prevent flakiness is by investing in both a pair of exfoliating gloves and a body scrub containing small, smooth microbeads. The result: Beautifully smooth, glistening, soft, silky skin all over! Sure it takes a little extra time and effort, but isn't that what being a sexy bytch is all about? :)

Exfoliation of the feet are also best performed in the shower. My weapon of choice is a pumice stone. This is the quickest way to remove any dry dead skin from your heels and around your toes. It's especially easy to remove when your feet or damp from the shower. Crusty feet are just gross -all year round!

*I strongly recommend body scrubs from The Body Shop. They're cheap, they smell amazing and they work like a charm! Gloves can be purchased everywhere from drugstores to grocery stores and are very inexpensive. Just be sure to wash them with detergent or replace them often to avoid bacteria build up. Not cute!*

Shaving-Ah yes! The dreaded act of hair removal. I can't stand it! Personally, I wish I could just walk around with my leg hair dragging on the ground, but unfortunately, I don't think to many people would find that very sexy! Ladies, we all know hair free bodies are the way to go. Although its a pain in the ass, and requires consistent maintenance, it's all worth it in the end. Now luckily, I'm not a hairy person at all! They only thing I actually do shave is my legs. Everything else is painfully waxed. And yes, in case you're wondering, that shyt hurts like hell!!! We'll get to that later...

TO BE CONTINUED....

Why I Blog...

2009-01-24T19:01:00.000-05:00

I was having a conversation with my friend Suzannah the other day about blogs; Who's talking about what on their blog, who exposed who on his blog, who praised who on her blog...blog...blog...blog!! We came to the agreement that Toronto has gone blog crazy! Everyone thinks that their lives are important enough to keep on online window into their daily, weekly or monthly activities. This isn't necessarily a bad thing. Some might consider it somewhat egotistical, but I'm not judging. How can I? I guess I can almost be considered one of those people! However, my reasons for blogging are not for gossip purposes. I find no pleasure in exposing anyone's secrets, worshipping local Toronto "celebrities" or filling you in on my every movement. What satisfies me is sharing a little piece of my mind with all who are interested in reading what I have to blog about. I write about my life because I feel that it's relateable to many. I go through the same ups and downs as the average 22 year old person, both male and female. I have no interest in playing a role. I am me. This is me. This is not "Ashley-the-former-Toronto-model". I have no juicy gossip, I have no blacklists, I have no "What not to wear advice columns." I have my thoughts, my opinions, and my stories. I am not looking for fans (I have plenty as it is!! lol!! Just kidding...) I am not looking for approval. I am not looking for popularity. I just wanna write!! I just want you all to read with an open mind an no expectations.

That's all!!

xoxo

Ms. Taylor

2009-01-20T22:43:00.000-05:00

I made a promise to u guys that I will try to make an effort to blog when I'm happy instead of just venting when I'm pissed!! SOoooooOOO...here I am, happy, and blogging. Only problem is, I don't quite know how to explain the way I'm feeling!! Let's just say the amount of wasted effort it takes to be angry and think negatively can be spent accepting things for what they are, without trying to tweak it, without trying to control it, just letting it be.

I'm in Love With You-Erykah Badu + Steven Marley

Another beautiful moment in history

2009-01-20T22:20:00.000-05:00

How times have changed

2009-01-19T14:48:00.000-05:00

This is a Norman Rockwell painting of Ruby Bridges ...

... the little black girl who had to be escorted to school by federal marshals. "On November 14, 1960, Bridges faced hostile crowds as the first black child to attend a previously all-white New Orleans school. She was 6 years old and had only been told by her mother that she was going to be attending a new school that day and 'had better behave.' Little did she know that she would be bombarded with jeers and even death threats, and that she would end up being the sole child in her first grade class after other children were kept home by their parents." All because Ruby was Black.

Forty-eight years later -- January 5, 2009 -- here is a picture of Sasha Obama, a little 7 year old Black girl, being escorted to school by her mother, First Lady-elect Michelle Obama, and the Secret Service because Sasha's daddy is now President-elect of the United States, Barack Obama...

Shame on me!!

2009-01-15T00:08:00.000-05:00

They say misery loves company...and if u ask me, I couldn't agree more! Take me for example, when I'm in a pissy, messed up mood and I feel the whole world is one big piece of crap, what do I do? I take a few shots of hard liquor and start blogging my misery away. I literally type until my fingers feel like they're going to fall off! Even tho it might not seem like a lot of information to u guys, the speed at which I'm typing at is record breaking! Believe me!! Blogging is extremely therapeutic and is definitely my favourite stress reliever. However, when u look at the bigger picture, what I'm actually doing is sharing my sad, pathetic stories with all of u so that u all can feel like shyt as well!! I feel down so I bring all of u down with me!! How horrible!!! I sincerely apologize!!! From now on I promise to make a conscious effort to blog when I'm in my fantastic moods as well as my bad ones! If I'm gonna bring u down, I might as well bring u up with me as well!!

Stay tuned... (lol)

xoxoxo

.....topic-less!!

2009-01-10T00:11:00.000-05:00

SOooo I decided to stay home tonight! I thought it would be fun to take a bubble bath, get tipsy, and play Guitar Hero in my boxers and tank top all night! Except I did it in the wrong order. I got tipsy, took a bubble bath, feel asleep in the tub and almost drowned, now I'm sitting in my room, wearing an over sized hoodie, blogging away on my laptop. Only problem is....I have nothing to talk about!! Shut up!! It happens to the best of us sometimes!

........I just ordered pizza. Large, extra cheese, hot peppers, pineapple, and chicken...

Heh...who doesn't love pizza right??....

OH HEY! Did u guys notice I added a music player to my blog?? Yup! I surrre did! Now u can jam to some of the songs I jam to while reading my super exciting blog posts! Cool huh?? No??....oh...well i thought it was kinda...cool....

Hmm......Ok...

So....I bought I new pair of jeans today!! From Ya Ya...at Scarborough Town...great store...Last week I went a little crazy there too...I bought a shitload of stuff I probably shouldn't have cuz...well...I forgot I had to start school again next week and...,yeah...

ARE YOU NOT ENTERTAINED?!??!?!?!!??!?!?!?!

Me either.....I'm bored!! Shyt's depressing!! lol!!

I'll come back after I eat!! Maybe my lack of creativity is being caused my hunger pains.....

Ciao!!

Lesson Learned

2009-01-08T15:14:00.000-05:00

Sing it Miss Keys....

Leaving the past behind

2009-01-08T12:11:00.000-05:00

I'm directing this particular post to both men and women, but specifically men. I have quite a bit of male readers who instead of leaving comments right here on my blog, will opt to hit me back with questions and feedback on my Facebook. That's completely fine with me! I'm just happy your reading! I appreciate all the love and support I get from you guys! Thanks very much!

Ok...

So here's what's on my mind:

You meet a girl, you dig her style, you hang out often, you grow close, eventually you get on a level with her where you can start asking her some personal questions. This is what will help you determine if she's compatible with you, right? So, you go ahead and ask her about her family, her friends, her educational background, her goals and ambitions for the future, how many guys she's slept with.....

Hmmmm....

If you're wondering why I stopped there, I'm gonna tell you why. YOU WENT TOO FUCKIN FAR WITH THAT ONE!!!! Conversation that involve an exchange of personal information become a LITTLE TOO personal when you start to get into your sexual history. My only question to you men out there is..."why the fak would you want to know how many guys your potential girl has been with anyway????"

Does it really matter?? And I mean, the fact that you're comfortable enough to ask her, shows means that chances are, you like her enough to be on that level where you think that you deserve to know that information. So does that mean that if she turns around and tells you she's been with 40 men, you're going to pack up your feelings and head for the door?? I just don't get it! The only people that ever needs to know that information is your doctor and the person that you choose to spend the rest of your life with. That's it!!

Now, I know what you're thinking. "But Ashley, if she has nothing to hide or be ashamed of, she shouldn't feel anyway about answering the question, right?" WRONG fuckers!!! There's this little messed up system you may be familiar with...it's called "society." The thing about society is that when a woman's number of sexual partners exceed the "socially acceptable" amount, (which apparently is no more than 1) she seems to be labled as a "whore" and pretty much gets thrown in the dumpsters. But when a man sleeps with any and everything that has nipples, and an area for him to stick himself into, HE GETS PRAISED!! YAAAAY!!! They damn near throw celebration parties in honor of their filthy behaviour. But it's alllll good...you know why?? CUZ THEY'RE MEN!!!

Here's where I'm going with this: When you put a woman on the spot by asking her how many men she's slept with, you're doing two things. a) you're setting yourself up for potential disappointment and b) you're changing the entire tone of the relationship.

And you know what else, whether or not homegirl is ashamed or proud of her numbers, there is a huge chance that she's going to lie to you!! That's right, she might lie! Just like you would lie to her if the roles were reversed. And she's probably not lying becuz she's embarrassed. She's lying cuz she knows that you have her on the chopping block. So she's sitting there, caught completely off guard, and your staring at her with a look on your face that says "You better not fuck this up bytch!" She knows that her answer can either make or break her. So the smartest thing to do, to prevent your insecure ass from running in the opposite direction, is give you a safe number..like...3!!! LOL!!

Now, I'm referring to MOST girls! Not me of course, becuz I am a virgin! True story...

To be honest with you, I have only been asked that question by 2 people, my doctor, and another guy. And for some stupid reason, I gave them both my honest answer. I really had no reason to lie to my doctor. But the guy, even though I felt he had some real nerve to be asking me if the first place...I told him! Whatev...

Of course that lead to him wanting to know more and more, but he's a guy. It's only expected.

Basically what I wanna know is, if you've already invested feelings into a girl, does it really matter how many guys she's slept with. Is it a reflection of insecurity if you feel like her number is "too high"? Would you feel embarrassed to be seen with a girl that the even the ticket seller at the movies has been with? Are you threatened that there's a possibility that she might have had a few men that were built like stallions and did things to her that you've never even heard of? What the hell is it?! Why do you neeeed to knoooooowwww??? Most women don't give a shyt how many partners you've had in your lifetime. We know you're all whores! So it's no big surprise if you have a history longer than the Dead Sea Scrolls.

One of the smartest things a guy ever said to me was this:

We were on our second date and we were talking VERY briefly about our past relationships. He turned to me and looked me in my eyes and said "Ashley, don't expect me to ask you details about your relationship history or anything to do with your past. I want to consider you my blank canvas. I'll draw up my own conclusions based on what I see from you with my own eyes."

GENIUS!!! Of course he turned out to be a complete physco but the point is, he made perfect sense!! I have never forgotten his words and it's safe to say, I live by them to this day.

Ok I'm done....well not really. There's so much more I can say but I'm gonna stop here.

At the end of the day, guys, if you want a pure little virgin girl then why don't you go down to the local high school and pluck one out of a grade 10 English class.

But for those of you who can handle a women, my advice to you is, leave the past behind. You don't always have to know everything, you nosy little shits!! lol!

Love you guys!!

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-07T20:02:00.000-05:00

I NOW UNDERSTAND 160% WHY WOMEN BECOME LESBIANS!!!!!!!!!!

MEN MAKE ME SICK!!! THEY ALL JUST NEED TO FALL IN A HOLE AND DIE....

FUCKIN LOSERS!!

Red Light District

2009-01-02T20:52:00.000-05:00

Ok so...this is my first blog of the new year!! How exciting!! For some odd reason I feel obligated to make it good! I'm making a conscious effort not to man bash as much as I did in 2008. So instead, let's bytch bash!! I have a few things I need to get out there!

Question: Why are some females such dirty, shameless, no-moral-or-value-having whores?? I don't know if it's just my generation, but I am completely disgusted with a lot of girls between the ages of 18 and 23. Let me break it down...

I work with men...all men...all very handsome men. Becuz of the kind of person I am, they treat me like one of the boys, which means lucky little me gets to be a part of the uncensored conversations about girls, sex, etc etc. Although I've had to occasionally run from the office in utter disgust from a few of these conversations, I feel like I have learned quite a bit about the way men view women/girls. All I have to say is, I don't freakin blame them!

I'm not sure what it is that's lacking in a lot of these young females' lives, but whatever it is, it's causing them to have very little or no self respect. They lay on their backs for any and everyone that shoots them a look. It's sad. Half of them can't possibly anything more than the man's name before they are giving up their bodies to them. They put themselves in a category within the first 5 minutes of interaction. It's in the way they dress, the way the walk, the way they talk...it's their overall presentation that's screaming "FUCK ME!" TAKE IT ALL! I'M GOOD FOR IT! AND I EVEN PROMISE NOT TO ASK FOR YOUR NUMBER ONCE IT'S OVER 5 MINUTES FROM NOW!"

The first thing I can assume that's missing in the lives of these girls is a positive male figure. Yeah yeah, I know that sounds super cliche and Dr. Phil-ish but it happens! Dad splits...little girl grows up with a certain hartird for men that she probably doesn't even know she has...and ultimately this leads to her becoming a "pleaser". She learns to do whatever it takes to please men instead of finding out what it takes to please herself first. And I'm not just talking sexually. I mean her whole life becomes about making men happy. She feels obligated at all times to make sure any man she's with is content. Even if it means giving it up before she's ready. Why? Because of the fear of rejection. Emotionally, these girls are scarred from their fathers walking out on them, so the thought of any other man rejecting them in any way, shape or form, is too much for them to handle. This is just one example. There are countless scenarios resulting in countless reasons why girls these days are so promiscuous.

There's nothing wrong with a little friendly competition (unless it's among friends of course!) When two females are in a social setting, say, a party for instance, and there happens to be a guy that catches both girl's attention, naturally, the internal tigress will come out in each of them. Take for example, a female peacock who spreads her feathers to show of their beauty when a male peacock walks by. Except females these days are spreading their legs to show off their insecurities when a male walks by!! NOT CUTE LADIES! There are A LOT of other ways to lure a guy in without promising to sleep with him. Let's see...there's eye contact, body language, or HEY! How bout good old fashioned CONVERSATION!! WORDS!! Remember what those are?? Your mouth is capable of doing other things...like speaking!! Try it sometime!

Excuse my ignorance, but I'm sorry! I've had it with hoes!! I'm tired of the loose ones making the GOOD GIRLS look like shyt! It's getting harder and harder to find a good man because so many of them are distracted by all the free sex that's being thrown at their feet. That's not a justification by any means! In the end, if the man takes it, he's just as dirty as the chick...we know this. But really, we as girls know that men are weak when it comes to sex. Why not give them something to work for? Men get praised for being scandalous...once again...this is something we already know. But as women, we make one false move and our respect is out the window! Is that fair? Of course not! But that's the way of the world.

I'm not saying I'm perfect but one thing i do know is that my mother raised with me enough class and instilled enough morals in me that I can sit here today and express my concern on this topic. Step ya game up ladies! When u look bad, u make us all look bad! And if your mad at me right now for putting you on blast, you shud be ashamed of yourself cuz I'm probably directing this towards you!!!

So in conclusion, let 2009 be the year of cleaning up you reputations ladies!
If not for you, then at least for your mothers!!

HAVE SOME DAMN RESPECT FOR YOURSELVES!!!

*Storms off....*

lol!!

Goodnight!!!

Lions and Tigers and Bears!

2008-12-29T01:08:00.001-05:00

Oh my!! Big tune!! Miss Jazmine Sullivan came correct on this one. Her voice is so unique, as is this song. Enjoy!!

My best friend

2008-12-27T16:48:00.000-05:00

I received a very touching email on FACEBOOK the other day. This was the first part of a very VERY lonnnng (but flattering note). I'd like to share it with you...

"Hi Ashley,

I just read your blog on Fate. I was a bit confused at first because I look at you (though I don't KNOW you), and I see perfection. I would assume that you have everything that you wanted in life. From your pics you come across as a very happy, popular, and confident individual. I can see from your modeling pics that you are a go-getter, hard-working, determined/driven, and successful. I wouldn't guess that something was missing in the picture. Of course, I'm looking from the outside and people should never assume things..." etc etc etc. "

She's absolutely right!! You should NEVER assume things!! The rest of the email continued on. The young lady who wrote the email shared some very touching, and personal stories about her life. She opened up about various topics which both shocked and flattered me. After reading the email in its entirety, I asked myself "Why me?" Why did this lady think that I was any better off than her?

She writes:
"I've been my worst enemy for years, I just wish I could be my best friend..."

Then it dawned on me. The reason why I am a little better off that the writer is because I AM MY BEST FRIEND! I really and truly mean that. It took a very VERY VERY long time for me to accept myself as I am but when I finally did, I fell in love....with me!! Ain't that some shyt!! lol!

As some of you know, a few years ago I was in a very serious relationship. The man was the love of my life. He was my whole world. I thought were were going to spend the rest of our days together. To make a long story short, we broke up. The reason why...I will explain another time in another blog. For now I want to explain you what happened after the breakup. I, Ashley Taylor, figured out who Ashley Taylor was. I stopped being the person that people thought I should be and started being the person I was, buried underneath all the "Internet fame." (ugh..i feel so wack even SAYING that!!!) I begin my "soul searching journey" and boy, did I EVER find my soul!! I can proudly say I know myself better now than I ever would have had I stayed in my relationship. I needed that time to just be me.

The email I shared with you shows that people look at me and think that just because I look happy in my pictures, that my life is "perfect." FAR FROM!! Let me tell you!! Indeed, I have been very blessed. I have a great family, fantastic siblings and parents that will bend over backwards for me. I have great friends who are there for me at the drop of a dime. My job is amazing. I live in a beautiful city and I have opportunities that others would kill for. I am healthy and strong and have a wonderful relationship with God. Yes, I am blessed. Does that mean my life is perfect??? The name of my blog is quite misleading. I do get what I want, true story. However, I have had to shed a lot of blood, sweat and tears, to get to where I am today...content. I am content. I am happy. I no longer care about other people's opinions about me. I am who I am. Love me or hate me. I no longer worry about pleasing everybody and their mother. This is my new outlook on life. I was never like this before. I have come a lonnnng way ladies and gentlemen!!

I used to be super shy, super self conscious and needed people to tell me I was pretty, smart, funny, likable....blah blah blah!!! I HATED attention (i still do). I hated the thought of anyone not liking me and went out of my way to be perfect. Guess what? I'M NOT PERFECT!!! (Surprised?? I know!! Kidding!!)
I remember staring at myself for hours in the mirror wishing I had smaller feet, wider eyes, narrower shoulders, thicker legs....longer toe nails, pointier ears, a more chisled jawline....YOU NAME IT, I WANTED IT!!!

I remember being in situations where something funny would happen and all I wanted to do was make a joke out loud. But I didn't know if it would be "socially acceptable" so instead I kept it in.

I remember being on sets of photo/video shoot and being told to basically sit there, shut up and look pretty. I remember thinking to myself "How can I sit still when I wanna jump up and interview that guy over there? How can I shut up when I have so much to say about the lighting on this set? How can I look pretty if I don't FEEL pretty in this piece of cloth that's barely covering my nipples??" So I stood up, packed my stuff, got in a cab and never turned back. I am not Extasy Angel. I am Ashley Taylor. I am not a local Internet celebrity. I am a real person. I have thoughts, I have feelings. My life is not perfect, but it's perfect for me. Don't believe the hype!! I have sat at a tables with some of the most beautiful and successful people in the industry...models, rappers, directors, mangers, DJ's...
The ones that I admire the most are the ones I feel know who they are. The are the ones that inspired me to find out who I was.

There is nothing wrong with spending time with yourself. Ask yourself questions and find the answers from within. "I know I like sushi but WHY do i like sushi? I know I feel happy when I am with him/her but WHAT about him/her makes me happy? I know it hurts when I think about such and such, but WHY does it hurt and WHEN did it start hurting? HOW am I going to stop it from hurting?"

This is the best advice I can possibly give to anyone! It works! It's not easy but it's so necessary. Look to nobody but yourself for answers. They're all within....even when you don't want to believe that they are. When you think you you can't find them, look a little deeper. I promise you, there are there.

xoxoxo

Ashley Taylor

S.A.G CHRISTMAS PARTY

2008-12-27T04:45:00.000-05:00

SOoooo last Saturday, was the night of the biggest event I've put in in my career thus far. It was the first annual "I'm Dreaming of A Supreme Christmas Event!" (I picked the name myself! I know I'm clever! You don't have to tell me!!) LOL!

Anyways, you might be thinking to yourself, "A Christmas party? What's the big deal?" Well I'll tell you what the big deal is! I tuned a massive car dealership into a beautiful ballroom. And I did a damn good job if i do say so myself!!

Everything was amazing! The food, the live band, the DJ and of course, performances by Erica, the "Sky High Girl" who I've decided has no bones cuz she can contort her perfect little body into non human shapes! I'm jealous....
Overall, the vibe was superb!

Of course, like any of my events, I was too busy running around like a headless chicken to eat, drink or be merry. But I did get to sit at the "executive table" and make a speech. I messed it up a tad bit! I hope nobody noticed! All my closest friends and fam came out which was greatly appreciated. All the love and support I felt throughout the night was overwhelming and I wanna take the time out to thank everyone that came out to celebrate the end of a great year. And although the night didn't end the way I intended, I had a blast!!

P.S: I have to get this part off my chest...it might sound rude but it needs to be said. I hate using the term "hater" but in this case, it's necessary. If you were one of the many haters that attended the party last week, thank you for giving me the motivation and inspiration to run laps around your sorry, worthless groupie little asses. What you should do is stop wasting your time hating and come up with a game plan on how your going to get on my level. Need a ladder???

To the rest of you that showed me nothing but love...here's my love right back at you!! Love you all!!!

Big shoutout to the ENTIRE SUPREME TEAM! This was a group effort and I couldn't do it without the help of each and everyone of you!!!! You guys are amazing!!!
xoxoxxo

The professional pics are coming but in the meantime, here are some candids:

BEFORE:

AFTER:

Broken Hearted Girl

2008-12-24T16:35:00.000-05:00

Beautiful song....disgustingly relavant...i wanna cry and puke at the same time...
sorry...i know that's gross. Just listen...

On a brighter note...

2008-12-24T16:10:00.000-05:00

I'D LIKE TO INTRODUCE YOU TO THE NEWEST MEMBER OF THE TAYLOR FAMILY.....CHLOE!!!

When I was little, I begged and begged and BEGGED for a puppy...I never got one. Kids these days are a lot smarter than we were back in the day. Check this, my little sister decided she wanted a dog, but instead of just ASKING for one, she used the "The Secret" theory and got one! I'm telling you, this girl went out and bought a bowl, a brush, a leash, a collar before we even thought about getting a dog! She would set it all up in the corner of the kitchen as if we already had one. My friends would come over, see all the dog stuff and thought my family was crazy. But guess what bytches??? IT WORKED!!!! She's the sweetest little thing in the world and I lovvvvvvvvvvvvve her!!!!!

Cursed

2008-12-24T15:50:00.000-05:00

What do you do when you just CAN'T seem to get something right??

Should you take it as a sign that it's not meant to be, or do you keep working at it until it happens??

When the emotional exhaustion starts to kick in do you put yourself out of misery by accepting defeat or take it as the motivation you need to push harder towards your goal?

When you've come so far from where you originally started that the thought of throwing it all away makes you physically sick...which way do you go? Which path should you chose?

When your heart has lost the ability to heal the cracks...when your eyes can no longer produce another tear...when your body is beaten down from the emotional blows....is it ok to walk away??

Please just let me walk away....

Let's take a closer look...

2008-12-16T21:05:00.000-05:00

Ladies and Gentleman... I am an art lover. I love art of all kinds, including music, paintings, drawings, animations, tattoos, etc, etc, etc. Never in my life have a seen such an amazing, thought-provoking piece of artwork like the one that I'm about to share with you. Take a look...

Ahhh yes..."You fucking broke it...." Almost moves u to tears, does it not? Now, let's take closer look, shall we?

As you can see, this picture tells an entire story, quite a typical one at that: Girl meets boy, Girl falls in love, Boy fucks up, Girl gets hurt...

Hmmm...sound familiar? I thought it might!

Now, as you can see the girl is slightly taller than the boy. This tells us one of two things; either the girl is more of a woman than the boy is a man, or simply that she is wearing high heel shoes of some sort. For argument sake, let assume she is a woman dealing with a little boy trapped in a man's body. A likely story..no?

Now, if you look closely, you can, see that the girl has on a pretty dress, with a lovely matching hair bow to compliment her attire. The boy, wears nothing...he is naked. This tells us that although the girl calls the boy to tell him they need to meet up discuss their relationship, in his tiny little pee brain, the only thing that registered was "SEX". And so he comes prepared...

Look closer now...the girl is holding her now broken heart in her hands and thrusting it towards the boy. Chances are, she made several attempts to illustrate the fact that the boy has done something to hurt her feelings. Judging by the dumb ass look on the boy's stupid face, he doesn't quite understand. The girl, probably then tries to explain in simplest possible terms that the boy's actions have caused her to feel uneasy. Once again, the boy doesn't get it. Proof of the boy scratching his head in total and utter confusion can be seen if you look closely at the two little hairs sticking up on the back of his hollow dome.

The girl then, has no choice but to rip out her heart and show the brain dead moron what she's trying to get across. "YOU FUCKING BROKE IT." Notice how his facial expression shows no sign of comprehension. If you zoom in extra close, you will probably be able to see the line of drool dripping from his half open retarded mouth as he struggles to understand why the girl still has her clothing on.

Pablo Picasso couldn't have done it better himself. I have yet to see such a piece of art more on point and accurate than this one. I couldn't let this precious piece of work go unappreciated. I am thrilled to have shared it with all of you.

Thank you,

Goodnight

Heartless...

2008-12-16T20:42:00.000-05:00

He says:
"My life is an open book."

She says:
Your cover is torn and stained with my tears...
Your pages are tainted and covered with fingerprints....
Your dedication is to no one but the person they want you to be...
Your introduction speaks only of shallowness and insignificant nothingness...
Your words are smudged and filled with lies and manipulation...
Your story is the coldest ever told...
Your ending is inevitable...
This chapter is now over...

Your book is now closed...

©Ashley Taylor 2008©

I hate this part right here...

2008-12-15T12:05:00.000-05:00

Ironically enuf, this song came on while I was on my way home early this morning. It couldn't have possibly played at a more appropriate time. These words are powerful....anyone going thru what I'm going thru will adore this song.

ENJOY!

Frosty the Asshole

2008-12-12T01:02:00.001-05:00

Ahhh....winter. The days are shorter, the nights are longer, the snow gently falls on upon ur rooftop, as you sit by the fire sipping hot coco cuddled up next to your handsome beau...you know, the one that you chased all summer but has finally decided to settle down now that it's cold outside. Yeah....him...!!

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE DEAL WITH THAT?????

Wait...before I continue, let me just say that I'm not referring to anyone in particular. It just seems that I've been getting a lot of calls from girlfriends who are now newly hooked up and in "relationships" with men that barely remembered their names a few short months ago.
Hmm...unusual you say? Not at all. This is the time of year that men like to hang up their pimp coats, park their nice whips in the garage, bring out the beaters, and settle down with a nice (and I quote) "Winter ting!"

Now ladies, how do you know if you are his "Winter Ting?"
Allow me...

*If you've seen homeboy more in the past 4 weeks than you did in the 4 summer months....you are a Winter Ting

*If he's only now introducing you to his mother, the same mother you were told lived in Jamaica when you asked to meet her back in the summer...you are a Winter Ting.

*If your dream dates consisting of nice dinners and romantic movies have now been replaced with Friday nights watching him play Halo 3 in his mother's basement...you are a Winter Ting.

*If he feels no way coming to scoop you in a broken down 1987 rust encrusted, winter tire-less, all around jacked up beater that you have to kick with ur Uggs just to be able to open the door to get in, and when eventually you do get in, there's no seat belt so you have to hold onto that little handle thing on the roof of the car that's hanging on for dear life with silver electric tape and he has his Diskman, not even an ipod, hooked up to the cassette player with a connecting wire....you are a Winter Ting.

*If you're being forced to get along with Felicia, his best friend's new "girlfriend" because all of a sudden you're going to spending a lottttt of time with her during your double dates at your man or his best friend's crib....you are a Winter Ting...and so is Felicia. Shhh....!

*If you wake up to him snoring beside you and cash on the bedside table with a note instructing you to call a taxi and text him when you get home to let him know you got in safely.....you are a Winter Ting.

*If he picks a big fight with you the day before Christmas or Valentine's Day and then calls to apologize exactly 2 days after...it means he didn't have a nice way of telling you he didn't wanna buy you a gift. Hence....you are a Winter Ting.

Ok I'm done. I'm just being honest! This wasn't meant to hurt anyone's feelings. I'm sure being a Winter Ting isn't entirely bad! Just make sure that if he's worth it, you do what you gotta do to make sure you're still in the picture when summer rolls around again. Cuz once the snow starts to melt, the predators come out of hibernation, hungry, drooling and looking for fresh meat.

JERKS!!!!!!

LOL!!!

Wait...Let me explain...

2008-12-12T00:49:00.000-05:00

I KNOW I KNOW!!! I'm a big slacker! You hate me and ur boycotting my blog! I'm sorry! I've been super super busy lately! I have soooo much going on that I can barely remember to eat much less blow the dust of my laptop and write!! But I'm gonna focus now! I promise!! Yeah yeah....you've heard it all before...

I'm a few days away from throwing a huge holiday party for my workplace. I'm super excited. I've been eating, breathing and sleeping preparations for WEEKS now. It's gonna definitely be a night to remember.

I'm also working on a huge business movement with 2 other very talented Toronto females. We're about to set the city on fire....stay tuned.

2 of my girls just got engaged, one of my boys just had a baby, another one of my girls is leaving for New York...etc. etc. etc ANNNND I haven't even started my Christmas shopping yet! Life in the fast lane can get a little hectic sometimes...but u know what, I love every minute of it.

Ta ta for now!!!

xoxooo

Miss Taylor

And then she got the call...

2008-12-04T09:50:00.000-05:00

Ok ok....weirdest shyt in the world!! I am now convinced that my life is a T.V show...soooo...shoutouts to all my viewers at home currently watching me type this blog!! The reason I say this is becuz LITERALLY 0.5 seconds after I finished writing my "fate blog" last night, my phone rang. The person on the other end was a person I have not seen nor have I talked to in quite some time (too much time!) Now, I can't even begin to describe what that means, and really, only my closest of close friends will even understand what I'm talking about right now. For those of u that are totally lost in the sauce as to where I'm going with this story...I REALLY WISH I could break it down for u but I can't!! All I can say is this: If my previous blog didn't convince you about how certain fate is....PLEASE...IF U CAN ONLY EVER DO ONE THING FOR ME...BELIEVE IT NOW!!! Shyt's real!!! Cuz that phone call could not have come at a more perfect time...and now...the plot thickens.....

Crazy little thing called FATE

2008-12-03T23:01:00.000-05:00

I would like to share something with you all that I have learned recently. This took a lot of time, tears, pain and stress before my eyes were finally opened to this realization. The realization is this: FATE IS FATE. It's as certain as life itself. No matter how much you try to shape it, change it, or dodge it...whatever's meant to happen, WILL HAPPEN!!! So learn to love it and make the most of it. I have been in a situation for some time now. It's brought out the best and the worst sides of me. One minute the sun is shining the next minute thunder storms are pouring down and lightning is setting my world on fire. To describe it simplest terms, I've been emotionally fucked up!! Here's the worst part....no matter how many times I've tried to change the situation, I find myself being pulled back into like a never ending tornado of bullshit. So I finally decided to take a step back and evaluate the situation from on observer's perspective.

What I realized is that I'm in this steaming pile of cow dung for a reason. I'm meant to be in it. There's something MUCH bigger going on here. I am learning very very important lessons. I am being tested. I am being educated. And yes...even though throughout this mess I have been pushed to my limit to the point of wanting to kill everyone around me (*ahem*) for whatever reason, my fate has decided that this is something I NEED to go through to perhaps deal with bigger and more significant things in my years to come. For that, I am thankful.

When at last I have absorbed all I need to absorb from this situation, I will move on with the knowledge, experience and wisdom that I will gain from going through this. But fuck.....I hope to God that that day comes soon cuz imma bout go ballistic!!! But for now, I'll keep forcing smiles until my face cracks...you know why? Cuz FATE says so!!

Goodmorning!!!!

2008-12-01T07:55:00.000-05:00

Ok....So I've been slacking again!!

Sorry guys! I promise this week's blogs will be on time and on point. You have my word.

I'm finally finished school...at least until January. So I'm looking forward to enjoying my nice lonnng break. I have a lot of planning to do. Not just events, but more life planning. I'm 22 years old. I'm not a kid anymore. I've realized that I'm at a point where a lot of the decisions I make at this time, will have an effect on my life 10 years from now. No more fuck ups! I have to get it right. I had a great conversation with my Dad the other day and all he kept reiterating to me was that the only thing I have on my side is time. I'm still young. I have not a second to waste because those are seconds I can never get back.

I'm all about change right now. I'm blessed to have people around me that motivate and inspire me even when others are tying to bring me down. So to all those that have been there for me these last couple of weeks, (which were like hell for me!) thank u so very much! You're efforts did not go unnoticed. Poons Su-Q, Lilo, Tizzy Tiz, I love u all.

HAPPY MONDAY BEEEEITCHES!!!!

XOXOOXOOO

New Pics/Outtakes

2008-11-26T20:29:00.000-05:00

Ok so last month I did a shoot with an amazing male model named Kegan. We had a friggin blast!! It was the most fun I've had on set in a long time!

Here are a few of the pics including outtakes of me laughing hysterically or trying not to fall of the couch!!

LOL!! ENJOY!!

S.U.B.L.I.M.I.N.A.L M.E.S.S.A.G.E.S

2008-11-26T20:00:00.000-05:00

SOoooooOOO....I have this new found obsessional with SUBLIMINAL MESSAGES. This week I will be doing extensive research on the subject and how it affects us as humans. Quite disturbing I know, but I'm just that type of weirdo! Sorry!

In the meantime let me share with you a compilation of scenes from the kid's show SpongeBob Squarepants. This show is a favourite of my little brother (8 years old) and my little sister (11 years old). I always enjoyed watching it with them due to the suggestive "adult humor". But even this is a little too much!

Spongebob and Patrick are the modern day Bert and Ernie....a little too close for comfort...

See for yourself....

FUNNY? YES! DISTURBING? QUITE!

Venus vs. Mars

2008-11-25T00:33:00.000-05:00

It's been said that men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. Two separate planets, two separate lifestyles. Let me illustrate to you the way I envision each one.

Venus: If the planet Earth is round, then Venus is heart shaped, pink, and as soft and fluffy as the bathrobe I'm wearing!! :) The woman of Venus spend their days splashing around in beautiful, sparkling blue fountains, skipping in vast fields of roses and daisies, and drinking virgin cocktails out of glittery crystal glasses. They all wear yellow carnations in their hair and flowy green grass skirts complete with one-size-fits-all coconut bra tops. When it rains, it rains Skittles and the clouds are made of marshmallows. At night time they, eat chocolate chip pancakes for dinner and pineapple and cream for dessert, as they dance around a bonfire singing Mariah Carey's greatest hits. There is no such thing as gossip. There are no such thing as jealousy. Because every woman on Venus looks like they just stepped of the page of a Victoria's Secret catalogue.

Mars: If Venus is heart shaped, then Mars is shaped like skull and crossbones. It's puke green and prickly, like a f*ckin cactus! The men of Mars spend their days gambling their lives away through endless games of dominoes. Every time one of them wins, they insist on banging the shyt out of the domino table causing dominos to fly everywhere, ruining the game for everybody. And the table breaks...so some sucker has to go find a new table so that they can start another game. Can you guess who that poor sucker is? It's the guy who lost the domino game. You know why? Because it's not enough that he has to deal with the embarrassment of losing, but now his wackness has to be put on blast by making him walk away from the game and sending him on the hunt for a new table. As he walks away, everyone points and laughs, forgetting that at any time, they could be that poor sucker. Can I tell you why? Cuz on Mars, EVERYTHING IS A FUCKIN COMPETITION!!!! It's all about who's bigger, better, stronger, faster, smarter...etc. At night, they sit in the pitch black and eat bowls of screws and nails. Then they drink tall glasses of swamp water, and the one that gags first has to wash all the dishes and make up all the beds the next morning. There is no such thing as peace, there is no such thing as equality. Because the mentality is this: In the wise words of Nelly "I am #1, 2 is not a winner and 3, nobody remembers."

For some odd reason, the men of Mars and the women of Venus somehow figured they were compatible. They decided to join forces and move to planet Earth where they could live harmoniously. They tried their best to adapt to each other's customs and new ways of living. Despite their greatest efforts, somehow the men of Mars just couldn't put some of their foolish ways to rest.

Fast forward to present day: The men of Mars STILL can't put some of their foolish ways to rest!! It's embedded in their brains, and there's nothing that woman from Venus (or Earth for that matter) can do about it.

The good news us ladies have 3 options; we can join the convent by become a nun, we can practise lesbianism, or we can be cranky old celibate freaks for the rest of our lives! YAY!! But for those of you that chose to partner up, more power to you!! Wait...I guess that includes me..Shheeit!!

Ok, Let's address a few problems.

Problem #1

Woman are long term thinkers while men are short term. Personally, in all my life, I've only had one real boyfriend. Welll...I guess technically you can say two. One was for almost 4 years, the other was for 6 months. Neither of those were one, or two week flings. Reasons being, I don't do those! If I ever go as far as to call you my "boyfriend" you better believe it's cause you have have certain qualities that I want in a husband, not in a part time friend with benefits! That doesn't necessarily mean I wanna marry the dude, but it definitely means I see more in him that just a temporary thrill.

Men will hook up with a chick and slap the title of "girlfriend" on her just to shut her ass up! They have no regard for what the title actually entails. If the relationship lasts a week, great! If it lasts a month, that's cool too! Who really cares! As long as it's a secured piece of ass, he'll just make the rules as he goes!! Wahhoo!!! (Fuckers!!!)

Problem #2

Women are naturally more secure than men. YES I SAID IT!! It's the damn truth!! For women it's enough knowing that once a man has chosen to "settle down" and get into a relationship with her she can feel secure. The relationship gives her all the confidence she needs to carry on with her everyday life without desiring attention from other men.

MEN on the other hand need more! Oh yes...what a fuckin shocker!! It doesn't matter how beautiful or smart or classy or perfect their girlfriends are, their stupid egos are constantly needing to be stroked. So here's what they do: They approach the skanky looking heifer with the Triple D's at the club, buy her a drink, flirt shamelessly with her, she gives him her number, he puts it in his pocket and walks away with the satisfaction of knowing that he's still got it! This is enough to temporarily feed his ever starving ego.

But guess what you forgot to factor in Mr. Swagg? That big boobed heifer happens to be at the club with her fellow slu bag friend Sandra, who just HAPPENS to work at the SAME place as your girlfriend and just can't WAIT to bait out your scene first thing Monday morning! BUSTED!! And all for what??? DO u really think wifey's gonna empathise with you when you try to explain that you just took Busty Mctits's number for the sake of taking her number? NO!! Cuz that's never where it ends! Somewhere in that crusty, corrupted, brain of yours lies other intentions... bad intentions! And no matter how high pitched your voice gets when you attempt to cover your ass, we see right thru you! We know that you feel its necessary to keep a bunch of randoms around just in case your not getting enough attention at home.

TO BE CONTINUED.....

There's a litte Tila Tequilla in all of us!!

2008-11-23T02:49:00.000-05:00

SHE'S HOT, SEXY AND CRAZY AS SHYT!! SEE FOR URSELF!!!

I'm thinking i might walk down the isle to this song when i get married!! LOL!!!

Goodnight Snitches!!

2008-11-19T00:46:00.001-05:00

Man, I really wanted to get into some hot topics tonight but I'm just tooo dammnnnn tiiiirredddd!!! WHAT A DAY!! School's been kicking my ass, the more I eat, the hungrier I get AND for some strange reason my left elbow is NUMB!! Like...completely numb!! How the hell do u get a numb elbow?? I need to sleep off this mess!

But before I go, I wanna send a HUGE congratulations to my homeboy Buckxx!! He is now a proud father of a beeeeaaaautiful little Princess. I'm so happy for you Papa Fray! Can't wait to kiss her wittle nose!!

As for the rest of you, come back tomorrow...huge topic....I'll give u a clue...S....E....X!

OH BEHAVE!!!!

Night night!!

xooxox

HAPPY F**KIN MONDAY!!!

2008-11-17T10:55:00.000-05:00

Heyyyyyy Guys!!!!

I know I've been MIA for a while...sorry! I've had a very stressful past couple days. My first semester at school is a few weeks away from ending so I've been drowning in assignments and presentations. BLAH!! But it's MONDAY and everything will be back on track by later tonight!

PROMISE!!!!

Hope everyone had a great weekends! Mine was.....interesting!! (stay tuned!)

xoxo

Dear Love....

2008-11-12T14:07:00.000-05:00

You took me under your wing and sheltered me from the harshness of the world...
You shielded my eyes from corruption and chaos...
You fed me with more love then I ever knew was possible ...
You, showed me how to love holistically...
You showed me how to love unconditionally...
You showed me how to love passionately...
But most importantly, you showed me how to love internally

You protected me from those who tried to hurt me...
You scorned those who looked down on me...
You whispered words that soothed and comforted me...
You picked me up before I had even fallen...
You kissed away my tears before they even began to flow...
You strengthened my wings, so that I could fly...

You are, and always will be a part of me

I'm everything I am, because you loved me.

I congratulate you on the lifelong journey that you are about to embark. I know that that little baby girl with look you in your eyes and feel the same way I used to feel, protected and loved.
You were always my hero and now the time has come for you to be someone else's.

I believe in you, the way you taught me to believe in myself.

You are going to be an exceptional father.

Shallen Christopher Fray, I love you with all my heart and I always will.

xoxo

TL

Mood Music

2008-11-11T00:00:00.000-05:00

Some of the sexiest songs I've ever heard.....

If you guys are wondering why I'm so reserved in the clubs, its cuz I spend all my energy dancing seductively to these songs in my room!! (BY MYSELF!!!) LOL....wait...that's not funny...it's actually quite sad...*tear*

ENJOY!!

HAPPY MONDAY!!

2008-11-10T23:26:00.000-05:00

It's late Monday night and I'm still recovering from a CRAZY weekend!! I had to make up for last weekend, which I decided to spend glued to my couch like a bump on a fakin log for 3 days straight!! How awfully depressing!! This friday I spent hanging out with my good girlfriend Suzy Q. We stayed local and hung out with a few others. I can't even begin to share some of the jokes we cracked that night!! It was too much!! However, we had to be in bed by a reasonable time to rest up for her big gig the following night. She was booked to host Toronto's very own DJ Starting from Scratch's birthday party at Solarium.

WHAT A NIGHT!!! We had a blast! Everyone was dressed to kill and it was nice to see so many Torontonians come out to celebrate the birthday of such a talented individual. Of course we had Suzy Q doing what she does best! Can't wait to see the video footage. Those of who weren't there, y'all missed out on a good one!

Shoutouts to all the girls I was rolling with that night. We were like 15 deep up in that piece!! lol!

Everyone of you ladies looked GORGE!!

ATTENTION PLEASE!!!

2008-11-08T15:29:00.000-05:00

I just wanted to take a minute to give a HUGE shoutout to Mr. Lost in the Willderness Himself, PHOTO WILL!!! Will, I know I haven't known you for that long but your blog is the reason I started writing again. Crazy huh? I commend you for the mere fact that you put so much of yourself out there for everyone to read without caring about people judging or misunderstanding you. Your stories are totally relateable and above all...just so real. Nothing censored. You tell it like is it partna! I respect you so very much and I really hope you understand that you were given a gift. Never let it go to waste. You're a superstar!! And ur photography ain't half bad either!! lol! GO WILL...GO WILL ...GO WILL!!

PS: ANYONE AND EVERYONE THAT CAN APPRECIATE A TALENTED WRITER, VISIT
WWW.LOSTINTHEWILLDERNESS.BLOGSPOT.COM

What makes a man SEXY???

2008-11-05T17:46:00.000-05:00

SO....after reading a very insightful write up by a friend of mine on Facebook, I got the brilliant idea of letting you all know what myself, and girls like me think makes a guy SEXXXXXY. There will be no sugar coating here. This is the raw, brutal, uncensored truth!! I asked my friends to give me their top 3 contributing factors that make a man sexy. Here's what some of them had to say:

Diva 1: "Ambition, cut body, and eyes that scan and undress the body...preferably mine!"

Diva 2: "Swagger, Independence and a beautiful smile"

Diva 3: "Lips, body, eyes, sense of humor and sense of romance. That's sexy to me!"

Diva 4: "Money Money Money" (Keep in mind Diva 4 was a friend OF A friend!! lol)

So as you can see, the list is made up of physical attributes as well as personality traits. Although both are very important, I think most girls would agree that it might be the physical attributes that originally attract us, but it's the personality traits that make us stay. Now...I'm gonna break down MY personal opinion on what I think makes a guy sexy. These are things that draw me in like a bee to honey. This is top secret information that I usually would not put out in the open like I am about to do. HOWEVER, I really do consider my blog my online diary. Therefore I choose to censor very little. I will always speak my mind and hope that you guys can handle it!
So here we go,

SENSE OF HUMOR: I know u all think I'm super cool, but not many people know the truth. The truth is that I am a SUPER NERD!! I love to laugh. If a man can make me laugh, I'm instantly attracted to him, no questions asked. Guys: that doesn't mean that you have to be a stand up comedian. A sense of humour is not limited to a guy being the one to make me laugh. I want to be able to use my crazy antics to crack him up too!! Remember, I'm a GOOF! I simply love a man that doesn't take himself too seriously, despite how important he may be. If you are able to laugh at yourself, that says a lot about your security level...which brings me to my next point....

CONFIDENCE: I think I speak for all ladies when I say a confidant man, is a very very sexy man. Now, please note that there is a fine line between CONFIDENCE and COCKINESS. Confidence shows from the minute a man approaches a lady. You can tell by the way he talks: Is he nervous? Is he tripping over his words? Is he looking into your eyes or staring at the wall behind you? Believe it or not, these are all things women notice right off the bat. Men: you're approach says A LOT about you as a person. So make sure it's ON POINT!! If you're not ready to go in for the kill, take a moment to relax, smoke a spliff, take a shot of tequila...do whatever you have to do to show that you are confidant enough to get that girl.
Cockiness never prevails! It stinks!! Ok...I lie...It's sexy for about 15 seconds. Then it stinks...really bad...so KEEP IT TO URSELF ASSHOLE!! Next on the list is...

EYE CONTACT: Ok, so I have a problem making eye contact with people that I don't know well. Yes I know...it's always been a flaw of mine. It wasn't until I met a guy who had these eyes that made it impossible for me to look away. Ever!! It was the craziest thing. He used them to lock me in and just like that, every word he spoke became so much more interesting. That's when I realized how incredibly sexy it is for a man to look me dead in my eyes while he's talking...or singing, dancing, kissing...ok not kissing cuz that would just be freaky! It shows EXTREME confidence. Of course, it's a big bonus when that guy happens to have beeeeautiful eyes (we'll talk more about that a little later!)

Next on my list is verrrry important...

SWAGGER: This is just one of those things that are so hard to put into words. There are so many different styles of swagg. Some men have too much for their own good while other, wouldn't know swagg if it slapped them in their no-swagg-having face!! It's all good...we can work on it fellas! Ashley's here to help!

Truth is, if I actually break it down as much as I feel is necessary, I'll have no room for anything else. Sooo what I'm gonna do it dedicate my next blog entirely to defining SWAGGER. Sound good?? Allllrighhhtty then!! Stay tuned....

Let's get to the good stuff already!!

EYES: I've already touched on the importance of eye contact. Now let's talk about why eyes undeniably play a role in a man's sexiness. Eyes are indeed the windows to the soul. They have the power to reel us in, lock us down and mesmerize the hell out of us! A man with beautifully shaped or beautifully coloured eyes are a major turn on. I have no colour preference. I've fallen for everything from deep, dark brown and slanted to big, wide and ice blue. In fact, it's not so much about the appearance of the eyes as it is about the power behind them. The eyes can tell so much about the person and what they've seen throughout their lives. SEXY!! I love it! Please note that naturally slanted eyes are extremely beautiful as opposed to "I-just-smoked-a-big-ass-blunt" slanted eyes which are scary! Get some damn Visine and move it alone! Don't come at me lookin' like Creeper from the Back Lagoon trying to holler! Nigga how many fingers am I holding up?? That's what I thought!! You and Century Sam need to pack it up and dip from my presence! Thanks for coming out!!

*Ahem*....let's move on, shall we?

LIPS/SMILE: Ok!! Now we're talkin'!! Fellas: LIPS CAN MAKE YOU OR BREAK YOU!! Believe that!! We want, soft, full, firm and shapely. Simple! So keep that cherry chap stick handy and apply often! And please PLEASE make sure ur not a wack kisser! Your kissing skills (or lack thereof) is probably one of the MOST IMPORTANT contributing factors to whether a girl can take you seriously or not. True story! We should never have to use a towel to dry off our faces after a kiss! Do not lick my teeth, do not tickle my tonsils and PLEASE DO NOT HAVE ROTTEN BREATH!!! Never underestimate the power of a toothbrush and a little mouthwash! They work wonders! Trust me!

A man's smile can also heighten his level of sexy. Personally I like the slow, seductive smirks. There's a certain amount of mystery behind them that blows my mind. Of course everyone loves the 100 watt Colgate smile! You can never go wrong with a million dollar smile. Throw in some dimples...mmm...it's a wrap!!

BODY: Let me try my best not to get carried away with this one! Here we go:
6 feet and up, broad shoulders, long thick neck, nice toned arms, firm, flat abs, big strong legs, nice bum, and tats (as many as possible without looking like a graffiti wall!) This is what I consider a perfect male body! Having said that, this doesn't mean that that's all I look for in a man, nor does it mean that I wouldn't talk to a guy that doesn't fit this entire description. All it is, it my perception of the perfect male body. Those of you that agree...agree. Those of you who don't agree or are offended by this in anyway...I'm sorry, but I did warn you in the beginning that this was gonna be raw and uncensored!!
Ps: Some of you may already know this but one of my biggest weaknesses is a man with a tattoo or several tattoos on his neck. I'm not gonna go into detail here...all I'm gonna say is SEXXXY...with 3 x's.

MIND: There is such thing as a "Mind Sex." It's not just a myth. I know this becuz I've had it before. Trust when I say, it's a beautiful thing. It takes a special kind of mind to be able to engage in this type of metal foreplay. There have been guys in the past that I hadn't been attracted to until they opened their mouths and completely won me over with intense conversation. It doesn't have to be about any topic in particular, but a man uses his words and knowledge to stimulate you and really make you say "Hmmmm....I never thought of it that way before" is a VERY VERY VERRRRRRRRRRY sexy man in my books. A sexy mind shows passion, intellect, creativity and so much. A sexy man should never be afraid to share what's on his sexy mind. And a sexy girl should be more than happy to listen!

So there you have it ladies and gentleman!! This is my personal opinion on some of the factors that make a man SEXY! I'd love to hear your feedback so drop me a line!!

xoxo
Ashley

YES I CAN!!!

2008-11-05T02:18:00.000-05:00

U can't stop me from dreaming...NOR can u stop me from spending an hour and a half cutting and pasting my big head on to a perfectly normal picture of my husband and his (actual) wife! U know why??! CUZ THIS IS MY BLOG BYTCHES!!!!

Ok I'm sorry!! As u can probably tell, I'm a TAD bit excited that President Obama is now the man in charge. I thought he was fynnnne before, but now that it's official..pshhhh...that man done shot up 50 more points on the my Sexy Scale!! Mmmm!

All joking aside, I can't express how proud, honored, and inspired I feel to have witnessed what I witnessed tonight. This is more than just a moment in history. This is revolutionary. This shows us that there is no such thing as "no such thing." As I watched President Obabma make his speech tonight, I thought for a moment about what a massive impact this has on sooooo many people of all races, religions, ages...etc. This is a big deal guys. We should all consider ourselves blessed to be a part of this historical, beautiful, event.

From a Black perspective, this is living proof of just how far we've come. I hope and pray that having a great leader like Barak Obama, is the push we need towards uniting and working together to love and inspire one another as opposed to killing and hurting our people. Black people have been through it all. This is the beginning a very difficult but rewarding journey. Not just for Blacks, not just for Americans but for all of us, as children of God.

I am blessed....you are blessed...we are blessed...Obama's hot...
Amen

LOL!!!!

See what lack of sleep will do to u!!
GOODNIGHT!!!
xoxo

"Twas the Day of Election....

2008-11-04T00:14:00.000-05:00

AHHHHHHH!!! THIS IS TOTAL MAYHEM!! I'M SO EXCITED (and a little scared at the same time :S )

Let me just start by saying, we are all about to be a part of world HISTORY. Some might see this election as something that only affects Americans however, this stretches wayyy beyond those 50 States. I promised that I wasn't gonna voice any strong opinions about this until after my husband becomes President. So I sit...and wait...patiently....

GO GET 'EM BABY!!!!

Rebirth of A Woman

2008-11-03T04:17:00.000-05:00

Today, is a new day.
Different from yesterday in so many ways...

Today, I wake up feeling refreshed and relieved. Today is the start of something new. Today is special. Today will be cherished. Today will be honored. Although I have woken up on many mornings just like this one, today is different....this is the day that not only will I wake up, but for the first time in a long time, I will open my eyes.

You see, for longer than I care to admit, I was in a deep sleep...too deep to get out of. I tried to make light of a dark situation. I convinced myself that I was in a place that I needed to be in. For so long, I tried to turn my reoccurring nightmare into a daydream. No longer will this be. Today I am at peace. Today I can sleep knowing that your loss is my gain. My vision is no longer distorted, my heart no longer heavy. The pain I felt is no more. I've decided I am worth so much more than you could offer. I refuse to pretend that I enjoy the feel of rain when in reality, the sun feels so much warmer on my skin. I will not settle for the coldness and inconstancy of the rain when I can bask in the warmth of the rays within my soul.
I've been blessed with internal sun. And it will shine on the one who I will call my own. Not on you....not today...not ever again.

Writen By: Ashley Taylor

HAPPY HALLOWEEN E'RBODY!!!!

2008-10-31T19:00:00.002-04:00

Soooo I'm sitting at home...with my costume folded neatly on my bed beside me, not motivated to go a damn place tonight! Every 2 minutes i'm running to the door to hand out a bunch of packaged cavities to several little ghosts, gouls, pirates and princesses! Oh to be a child again!! SO far, up in the air is Monster's Ball, Shuffle or Screamers...and of course, my favourite option, MY BED...to sleep that is! (BEHAVE!) If it wasn't for a certain stupid someone, that I can't seem to get out of my HEAD....i'd be more than anxious to get out there and show off my sexy little costume. But right about now, I feel like trading it in for a nun's robe and chillin in my house! THANKS ASSHOLE!!!!

To all of those who actually have lives PLAY SAFE, HAVE FUN, AND DRIVE SLOW HOMIES!!!

XOXOO

What about your friends....?

2008-10-30T18:07:00.000-04:00

As I might have mentioned before, I, Ashley Taylor, am a lover...not a fighter. I love everybody, or I at least try to. It's hard to trust people in this day and age. A lot of females seem to have good intentions when really, they hang around you for their own selfish reasons. These reasons can easily be disguised with kindness and admiration, which gives you a false sense of security that these people can be trusted. WRONG!!! Fool me once, shame on u. Fool me twice, shame on me. I have been lied to, snitched on, walked over, taken for granted and back stabbed in the past. All by people I considered very good friends of mine. I've learned my lesson. I keep a VERY tight circle consisting of girls I've know since I was 10. Nothing hurts more than finding out someone you trusted with your secrets, ur deepest and most intimate thoughts, has betrayed you. Over that past couple years I have of course made new friends. Some of which I truly hold dear, some I keep at arms length. There's a fine line between a "friend" and an acquaintance". I have few friends. I have countless acquaintances. Let me break it down:

If you know where I live and have even entered my house a few times before, you are an acquaintance.
If you practically live at my house, chill in my room at refer to my mother as "Mom" you are a friend.

If the only time we ever see each other is when we're dressed to kill, sippin champagne at the hottest parties, you are my acquaintance.
If you have woken up beside me with morning breath and no make up, you are my friend.

If we share the bill, you are my acquaintance.
If we've shared tears, you are my friend.

If you're on my blackberry messenger, you are my acquaintance
If you're on my speed dial, you are my friend.

If we still call each other hunnie, sweetie, girly, or each other's myspace names you are my acquaintance.
If I refer to u as my "nigga" my "bytch", my "hoe" or other endearing terms, you are my friend.

I can go onnn and onnnnn and onnnn! Instead let me just take a moment to shout out my most favourite chicas.

NATALINA!! (A.K.A MY POONAM!!)

Poonam: You have been there for me every step of my post high school life. The smartest thing I ever did was make that phone call to tell u that I had a dream about ur stupid bingo monologue. We have been inseperable ever since and I don't know what I would do without u. I trust you with my life and love u with all my heart.

LEAH!! (A.K.A MY LILO!!)

Lilo: Our friendship has been tested by COUNTLESS people! I still can't figure out why so many people wanted us to hate each other's guts! Maybe cuz they knew that together u and I are nothing short of a powerhouse! We've had our rough patches over the years but we've always made it through. I appreciate your friendship more than I can ever describe! Nothing will ever come between us! Not even a boy! Promise!! Love you so much mama!

SUZANNAH!! (A.K.A MY SUZY Q)

SUZY Q: GOOD LORD WOMAN!! I swear U are gonna be the death of me!! (God forbid!)
The amount of shiiiiit that U and I have been thru in the past year has been ridiculous!!! I can honestly say, I want to slap the fak out of u and hug u at the same time!! Nevertheless, I have never gotten along with someone so well, so quickly. Even tho certain assholes cursed our friendship from day one, we've made it thru. I want the very best for you and will always do what I can to keep you focused on your goals. Thank you for the long walks, the green box chats, and for just being you. I love u my nigga.

SADE (A.K.A MISS INDEPENDANT)

MISS INDEPENDANT: She got her own thing...that's why I love herrrrr!! Sade man, what can I say? Bytch, you on point!! I've always admired your "don't fuck with me attitude". That's why I never do!! lol! We've known each other for almost 13 years and though we've both evolved into different people with different lives, we managed to keep our friendship strong. I am so proud of all that you've accomplished. You really are an inspiration. I know I don't tell you enough but I love you bytch! I'm here for u till i'm old, saggy and gray. Dill Pickle Sunday for life my nigga!!

JESSICA!! (A.K.A MY DOWN ASS BYTCH)
DOWN ASS BYTCH: If Mr. Man hadn't put that ring on ur finger, I would have!! U my dear, are truly one of a kind. I can understand why he wants to spend the rest of his life with u. Who wouldn't?? I can't even sum up out friendship! I'll save that for the wedding! All I can say is that for 13 years you have been like a sister to me. Nobody walking this earth has made me laugh as much as you have. You were crazy when I met you, and ur even crazier now! And I love you so very much and hope that you never ever change! Ur life has been filled with so many blessing and I'm glad that you have shared the blessing of your freindship with me. I LOVE U, U FUCKIN BYTCH!!!

ALLANA (A.K.A MISS DILL PICKLE HERSELF!)

MISS DILL: Guy, I know ur not an internet fan, but I hope this message finds you on time! lol! What the fuck is there to say about u and me?? You are the love of my life! I love everything you do, I love everything you say...u are so wild and free spirited. Mannnnn....I just love u to death. I know you and me hardly ever get to see each other anymore but when we do, it's magical! I cherish every moment I spend with u. I admire your strenth, your courage, your sense of humor...Like, I'm laughing right now just reflecting on some of the things we've been thru in the past 13 bloodclot years!! ANd girrrl, we've been thru some SHIT!! From Genuwine obsessions, to Snoop Dogg voice mails and everything in between!I love you more than u'll ever know.

SHANDA!! (A.K.A EVA LONGORIA)

EVA: Shaaaannnda P!! Man, I haven't even known u that long but I feel like u and I clicked from day one. You are so much like me in so many ways that it scares me! I never feel like I have to over explain anything to u! I say it once, and u get it instantly! Or u at least pretend to! lol! But really tho, you are an amazing person wih an amazing heart and I'm really grateful for your friendship! Here's to many more years and much more drama! Fun drama!! U know how we do! ;) Love you!!

ANAYA (A.K.A MISS HAYES)

MISS HAYES: Anaya, I know ur too busy to fit me in ur schedule BUT I still love u! You are super talented, super ambitious, and super SUPER hard working! U might be one of the most misunderstood people that I know, but I truly feel that I got a chance to know the real you which is why I stand behind you and will support you in everything you do!!

and last but CERTAINLY not least

MISS NATOSH! (A.K.A MY WIFEY)

WIFEY: It makes me cry when I think about all the fun we used to have! The power clubbing we used to do. The bottles we used to pop....well, the bottles we used to watch pop and then partake in!! lol! I don't even remember how we met! All I rememeber is falling in love and bussing jokes NON STOP!! You are a diva in every sense of the word! I am so happy we found each other! There's no one that can cheer me up faster than you. Anytime u need me, I will be there (with a hot bowl of pumkin soup and a fresh banana straight off the hanger!!) I love u!!!!

IF YOU MADE THIS LIST...YOU ARE MY BYTCH!! FOREVER AND EVER...AMEN!

STAY TUNED...I WILL BE DELVING DEEPER INTO TOPICS ON FRIENDSHIP TOMORROW...OR MAYBE THE NEXT DAY...YES...MOST LIKEY THE NEXT DAY!! lol!!
XOXO

YAY FOR SURVEYS!

2008-10-29T22:45:00.000-04:00

SooOOOoo...I totally have a major case of writer's block today! In a time like this, what would usually be worthless bullcrap, becomes blogworthy goodness! It took me FOREVER to complete the FAKIN thing so make sure u read it alllll the way thru! And if there happens to be spelling mistake and/or grammatical errors, TOO BAD! I was so cross eyed by the time I finished doing the damn thing that I didn't bother to proof read. There's a bunch of random backslashes(/) in my answers that i tried to edit it out...but i gave up halfway thru...nevertheless...ENJOY!!

60 Questions People Dont Ask Survey - Fun Myspace Survey'>

60 Questions People Dont Ask Survey

When's the last time you ran? - Last night...to catch the Go train home from school!

Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them? - My favourite pair of Parasucos have a big ass hole in the right thigh...but I REFUSE to throw them out!

What are you dreading right now? - SNOW!! WINTER!! ICE!! Anything and everything cold!

Do you celebrate 420? - Yes....and I always end up regretting it when I eventually get home and begin the never ending munchie fest

Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night? - Pfffffffff......I'm sorry... 8 hours? Sleep? In the same night?? Does such a miracle exist???

If anyone came to your house on your "lazy days" what would ya'll do? - Sleeping....

Who last grabbed your ass? - My boss....lol! But I\'m SURE it was an accident....

Have you ever been on your school's track team? - Don't even get me started!! I'll have you AND everybody else that reads this know that i am a track SUPERSTAR!! no word of a lie! I shud have never ever quit....sorry Daddy...I know I crushed ur dreams :(

Do you own a pair of Converse? - Umm...sweat socks, yeah

Did you copy and paste this survey? - Not yet...but u bet ur ass I will!

Do you eat raw cookie dough? - Naw...shyt gives me a tummy ache! Unless it's in ice cream!

Have you ever kicked a vending machine? - Yep...and lost my shoe doing so. I don\'t recommend following in my footsteps.

Don't you hate it when the radio ruins good songs by playing them over and over? - Um...yeah, ie. Rihanna and T.I which I heard a total of 4 times in less that 1 hour today...damn local radio station (u know who u are!!!)

Do you watch Trading Spaces? - Nope...

How do you eat oreos? - I don't....does that count?

Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone? - Sure....back in the ICQ days

Are you cocky? - Contrary to popular belief....Not even a little bit!

Could you live without a computer? - WHY WOULD U EVEN SAY SUCH A THING??? Obvvvvvviously not!!!

Do you wear your shoes in the house? - No...but when I was a kid everybody on TV did it and it looked to cool. I did it once and got a backhand. SO no...the answer is NO!

Who or what sleeps with you? - LMAO!! Ohhh man....ok...let me resist the urge to completely R-Rate this answer. I sleep with My Huskie (Buckxx), My Siberian Tiger(Stripes) and My rabbit (Thumper from Bambi). True story...

At what age did you find out that Santa wasn't real? - WHAT THE FAK DO U MEAN SANTA'S NOT REAL!?!?!?!?! umm...my dad thought it would be fun to share that disturbing fact with my bro and I on Christamas Eve when I was about....6. THANKS DADDY!!

How many phones, house phones and cell phones are in your house? - 5 active cell phones, about 15 just lying around, 2 house phones, a fax machine and a whoooole bunch of toy phones, courtesy of the youngr siblings.

What do you do when you're sad? - Cry...Scream...Cuss....Blog...exactly in that order...

Who would you call first if you won the lottery? - No one....that's just asking for trouble!

Last time you saw your best friend? - Too long!

Are you in high school? - Sometimes I honestly feel like I am...but no

What jewelry are you wearing? - My \"love\" ring, my blingin\' belly ring, my gold hoops, and my brand new gift, a Chanel bracelet. I'm shinin\' man I'm shinin\'!

Is anyone on your bad side now? - Suprisingly not...ask me again tomorrow and I might provide a list!

What's the first thing you do when you get online? - Check my email...then facebook...then blog...it's a vicious cycle...

Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? - Nope

How do most people spell your name? - B-O-S-S B-Y-T-C-H

Would you wear a boy/girlfriends clothes? - I have enough baggy white T's to last me a lifetime! Shout out to my supplier!! I promise I\'ll give them back one day.....maybe...but probably not

Where do you work? - S.....A.....G!!! brap brap!

What are you doing tomorrow? - Attending an 8 hour biz conference downtown. Now isn't that the most...no like THE MOST exciting thing you've EVER heard??? At least their serving breakfast!

Is Justin Timberlake becoming the next Michael Jackson? - Fak no!! He's good but he sure as hell ain't Michael. If u ask me...I say Chris Brown\'s got next

Favorite name for a girl? - I'd tell u but then i'd have to kill u! It's the name of my unborn baby girl

Favorite name for a boy? - See above answer. Just switch the \"girl\" part to \"boy\"

Will you keep your last name when you get married? - I want to...only cuz I can't think of a last name that flows better with my first then \"Taylor

When was the last time you left your house? - At 8 am this morning

Do you return your cart? - Always! Then I use the 25cents that i get back to my myself a gumball!

Do you have a dishwasher? - Damn right! Her name is Ashley!

What noise do you hear? - What, like right now?? My tummy growling...it needs ice cream

Would you survive in prison? - I couldn't survive in my damn garage for more than an hour...what does that tell u??

Who is the youngest in your family? - My wittle baby brother...ok he\'s 8...still MY baby tho

If all of your friends were going on a road trip, who would most likey overpack? - Me, me, meee

Do you know anyone with the same name as you? - Tons...but it sounds best on me! Take that Ashley Taylor\'s of the world!!

What's the last thing you purchased? - Mr. Sub

Do your siblings ever pay for stuff for you? - My brother's known to pick me up a two peice meal and Chick'n Joy every now and then...

What brand are your pants right now? - Not applicable...as I am not wearing any at this time

Ever been to Georgia (the state)? - I'd love to but sadly...no

What irritates you most on the internet? - Haters posed as groupies

What brand is your digital camera? - Blackberry...lol!!

Do you watch movies with your parents? - Yeah me and my mom did \"Why Did I get Married\" the other night

What song best describes your life right now? - Comfortable-by Weezy F Baby

Do you own expensive perfume/cologne? - Of course dahhhling...Light Blue..Armani Code and a little teeeny vial of Chanel #5 that I only put on when I really REALLY like sombody

Are you taking college classes right now? - Holla at this Scholar!! I am getting my education on!

Do you like sushi? - LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEE IT!!

Do you get your hair cut every month? - When did that become a rule?

Do you go online everyday? - Not on purpose....

Will you pass this survey on to 5 people? - NOPE!! but I'll let them know where to find it

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Pharrell....my wittle shnookumz!!

2008-10-28T02:38:00.000-04:00

This video made me fall in love with Mr. Williams. It's always been one of my favourites. The thing that makes me swoon is that he's so incredibly random and out there which reminds me so much of myself. Who else would have cute little cherries singing along to the music or little cartoon characters flying up to space and bubbling on a flower?? Meeee...that's who!! Well...and Pharrell of course! I especially love how he keeps sporadically throwing in "mother fucker" throughout the song!! It has nothing to do with the rest of the lyrics but it sounds so right!!

What can I say...it doesn't take much to amuse me!! I'm amused! You can be too! Enjoy!!

DROP ZONE

2008-10-26T16:46:00.000-04:00

Ok....I have another secret for u guys. Listen closely cuz I'm only gonna say this once....This is hard for me to admit... but...I don't always get what I want. THERE!!! I CONFESS!! Sometimes, despite my efforts, things just aren't meant to be. I hate it, but I refuse to exhaust myself in attempt to force a situation that just isn't written in my book of life. Lately I've decided to step off the biggest up and down, round and round, twirly, spinny, flippy emotional roller coaster of my ENTIRE life!! Let me try to paint a picture for you guys. Hopefully most of you are familiar with the rides at Canada's Wonderland. Let's just say, my emotional roller coaster was comparable to Drop Zone.

Breakdown:
Drop Zone, ironically enough, never really appealed to me when it first came out. I saw it, I heard all about it, i knew it LOOKED like fun, i just really didn't have the urge to get on it. It wasn't until one sunny summer day, something just told me to take a chance and try it out. If i liked it, i liked it. If i didn't well, shit...there were always Top Gun! So I got on with an open mind. As i sat in the seat and buckled up, I wondered to myself what type of thrill I was in for. The ride going up seemed to move at a snail's pace. I focused on my surroundings. The view from the bottom was filled with familiar sights and sounds; bright colours, cotton candy, children's laughter and screams of excitement. Nothing I hadn't seen before. As I got higher in the air, I noticed things that I would have never been able to see at ground level. I saw rooftops, highways, hills, valleys, big open fields... I felt like I had been lifted above the world that I had grown accustom to. This atmosphere was new and exciting. It brought on different obstacles and challenged my level of courage. It forced me to take in the beauty of my new surroundings while leaving behind the fear of being suspended practically in mid air.

As I reached the very top of the ride, it stopped for what seemed like forever. I took a deep breath and looked down at my world below. It was all so familiar, and safe. It was warm and welcoming. I looked up at this new world. It was majestic, bright, sparkling but uncertain. Could this new world ever really be mine to claim? Would I ever be able to deal with the flashing lights and constant motion of the highways and back roads. Sure there were big open fields, which were beautiful and seemed like a peaceful place to run and escape from the fast lane, but when I get there, will I be alone? Or is this the hiding place of so many other newcomers that were drawn in to this glittery new life? Right at the moment I was about to make my decision, I plummeted. I was ripped from the sky and thrown back down to ground level...back to my world. I was safe. I was home.

Do I wish I could have been apart of the new world? I would be lying if i said no. Who's to say what will happen in the future. Maybe when I outgrow this world, and feel the need to move on to a new one, I'll know exactly what I'm getting myself into. I can go forth and learn to appreciate the beauty instead of always being in fear of falling from the sky.

ATTENTION!!!!

2008-10-21T03:58:00.000-04:00

Soooo....I recently found out that a certain SOMEONE has become a regular reader of my blog. Thus, I must be cautious as to what information I post on here from now on! Reasons being, this certain someone likes to find out little tidbits of information and puts on a FAKIN FANTASTIC act as if they know nothing at all!! Veerrryyy sneaky but veerrrrryyy clever at the same time. So Person X, enjoy!! After all, you were the inspiration behind my blog in the first place!

Luv ya!!
xoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxo

HOT BOY/GIRL OF THE WEEK!!

2008-10-20T13:48:00.000-04:00

Tonight, I've picked a new HOT BOY AND GIRL of the week! Inevitably some of you will disagree with my choices at some point, but...it's doesn't matter cuz IT'S MY BLOG NOT YOURS!! LOL! So read it and love it!!

HOT BOY: Lamman Rucker
SOooo, this man is the main reason I can watch Why Did I Get Married over and over and over and over again! Sheriff Troy (Lamman Rucker) plays the stunning, strapping, knight in shinning armour that comes along and sweeps a broken down Jill Scott of her feet! It's actually rumoured that the two of them had a real life romance briefly. Lucky bytch!! This is one of few men my mom and I can both agree that is magically delicious! Lamman Rucker...I salute you, you beautiful hunk of a man!!

HOT GIRL: Selita Ebanks

By far, this woman is one of my most FAVVVVVOURITE Victoria's Secret models. Selita Ebanks is killer on the runway, and a stunner in the ad campaigns. Although she can never replace Tyra and can't even hold a candle to my baby Naomi, she's doing pretty well for herself. Her resume is tres impressive. I look forward to seeing her strut her stuff at this year's Victoria's Secret Christmas Show. Gwan Gyal!!

NEW PICS!

2008-10-20T13:23:00.000-04:00

I COMPLETELY FORGOT TO POST THESE! I DID A SHOOT LAST WEEK FRIDAY FOR A GRAPHIC DESINGER WHO'S PUTTING TOGETHER A POTFOLIO OF HIS WORK. THESE ARE A FEW OF THE RAW, UNEDITED PHOTOS I'VE RECEIVED SO FAR. TAKE A LOOK!

Lost In The Willderness...fun fun fun!

2008-10-17T17:50:00.000-04:00

SO last night was indeed a blast. It felt like a great big Facebook house party! The vibe was amazing, the energy was high, and love was definitely flowing throughout the room. The amount of beautiful, creative and talented people in that one room was unbelievable. All in all, I give it a 10 out of 10! Great job guys!! Can't wait for the next one! Much love to Future, Masters, Oliver Prince, Bishy Bish, Miss Hayes, Latoya, Azuka, Janet, Caitlin...always a pleasure seeing all of you. Thank u to all my girlies, Lilo, Suzy Q, Shanda, Anna, and Eptsam for coming thru looking smashing (as if I expected anything less) Annnnnnd of course to Will, Drake, Oliver and 40 for putting on a wicked party and just being so damn COOL!! Luv U all!! Have fun in out Nation's Capital this week boys! ;)

Ok, now that's I've finished my acceptance speech...ON TO THE PICS!!!

WOW!!

2008-10-16T14:45:00.000-04:00

I JUST WANTED TO QUICKLY SHARE THESE 3 VIDEOS WITH U GUYS. IT'S BEEN A HOT MINUTE SINCE I'VE BEEN BLOWN AWAY BY A MUSIC VIDEO BUT THESE RIGHT HERE...CRAZY...JUST CRAZY!! SEE FOR YOURSELF!

Mr. West never fails to amaze me

*Beyonce, you are the Queen of my Universe! When I grow up I WANNA BE YOU!!!

Nice comeback Britney!!

MY GIRLS WANT TO PARTY ALL THE TIME, PARTY ALL THE TIME, PARTY ALL THE TIIIIMEE!!

2008-10-16T14:28:00.000-04:00

SOooooo.....this past week has been an absolute roller coaster for me, emotionally and physically! I lived, I loved, I lost. I drank, I jammed, I blogged (in that exact order!) From Lot 332, to Tryst, to Reign...it's been a mess! Tonight, me and the girlies are off to a top secret location to celebrate the birthday's of Drake, Oliver and Nico (all of October's Very Own). It should be fun!! I'm sure there will be plenty of pics taken that I will of course be sharing with you all on my next post! Soooo....look out for them!!

These are a few pics from my various runnings this week

Goddamn I wear a lot of black....I think it's time for a wardrobe makeover!!

PICK OF THE WEEK

2008-10-13T21:17:00.000-04:00

Ok soooo....each week I will be choosing a hot boy and hot girl to feature on my blog! Isn't that exciting?? I thought so!!

HOT BOY: WILL LEMAY
What can be said about this man? He's hot...that's about all I can think of. I first saw him in the "What's Love" video by Fat Joe and Ashanti and have been smitten ever since! So, if u happen to be reading this Mr. Lemay, I lovvvve youuu!!

HOT GIRL: MEGAN FOXX
So when I went to see Transformers in the theater, I literally started choking on my Fuzzy Peaches when this girl showed up on the screen!! WHY IN GOD'S NAME IS SHE SO HOT??? She oooooozes sex appeal! I almost feel sorry for her becuz there's no way any human, and I mean, man woman, gay, straight, can look at her without undressing her with their eyes! It's disgusting!! She's utterly perfect! Blah!!

Why Must I Cry???

2008-10-13T20:19:00.000-04:00

I cant even begin to explain how inspiring this video has been for me. Reh Dogg is truly the epitome of talent and creativity. If there were artist like him in the world, we'd all be a lot better off.

I love u Reh Dogg....

LMFAO!!!!!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

2008-10-12T23:20:00.001-04:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYBODY!!!

THIS YEAR I'M GRATEFUL FOR SAPPY, DEPRESSING, SHOOT-ME-IN-THE-HEAD-IMMEDIATELY-IF-NOT-SOONER SONGS LIKE THIS ONE THAT HELP ME GET THRU THE TIMES THAT I FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF....LIKE RIGHT.....NOW!!!! ENJOY SNITCHES!!

XOXO